Well I got myself a second job. I thought things would be a little smoother, at the cost of less free time. But this is shaping up to be another terrible year for me. Sure I have some money now, but I can't do anything with it besides give it to my family, who try to act like they don't want it, even though I am supposedly in charge of buying the food and paying the internet bill. Speaking of family, my relationship with them has never been lower. I hardly ever see my sister any more, my brother refuses to talk about anything remotely serious about his life and my father has just the shortest fuse imaginable, I don't know what will set him off these days and I try my best to stay on his good side, which for me means staying out of his way as much as possible, while still somehow having to be almost attached to his hip with how much I have to help him in my small amount free time. I barely have time to even say hi to my online friends these days, the most I can do is just glance through the various discord servers I share with them and maybe react with an emoji or a lol if that's a good spot for one. I don't know what to do with myself these days aside from work when I have too. I'm very tired most days now and I haven't cooked a meal for my family or even myself in weeks thanks to my hours now. I would say I'd like a day off, but I don't get those anymore, even when I don't have a shift to take care of, because with how my family is, home is sometimes more work than the jobs I'm paid for.
I just want one day where I don't have to do anything and no one tries to make me feel bad about it. Hell, I don't even need something to keep myself entertained with like a book or internet. If I could just sleep all day or sit in my chair and waste the day with no repercussions or my family trying to guilt me in to more work, then that would be a great day for me. But that's just too much ask for in my position, so I have no choice but to just bare with all the stress I'm going through just to make sure food I can't make is on the table.