I am bit hesitant to write this, but this a fairly locked down place due to the 'adult' content and themes.

Every great once in a while I post or re-post something and someone asks how in the world can I do such things. (Or some annoying troll goes on about misandry, which is a bit amusing as the troll misses the bit about the origin of the idea...) Anyway...

Ages ago, at or just before puberty I had a couple 'friends' who were generally alright, but at times...well, boys can be jerks. And it amused one or many to do ballbust to a buddy. This was likely a simple one-finger jab at 'the package' while riding a bus where so much was going on that one blow like that wouldn't be noticed save for the two or three directly involved. Had this been a one time thing, likely nothing would have happened. But.. it was not. It happened many times, but probably not as many as I now think.

About the same time I had encountered the idea of building up a resistance to things. Think of the Iocane powder bit in The Princess Bride. That sort of thing. So I figured I'd apply pressure myself and work up a tolerance if not immunity and remove the payoff of seeing me in pain from a nutshot. Except this was right around puberty... you can see where this is going, yes? Yep. Pain.. and.. pleasure.. got mixed... confused even. I can only wonder how things would be had I known more girls...if they were so forward.

"But the castration stuff...?" you ask. Well, it's fantasy and imagination and is sort of the Ultimate Ballbust. I have no desire to actually "lose 'em" (can't repeat that - it's all over. It's not about 'the life after' but about the feeling of the process. This is why 'snip snip' isn't a thing I care for - it should be a... spectacle..) But I can think about it, and get some amusement and (admittedly perverse) pleasure from such musings. Oh, and while it was other guys doing the busting, well, puberty again. The fantasies involved girls/women. Femdom thus had some appeal. It was a relief to discover the term. I knew what it meant instantly and was relieved that even though I was distant from... everyone.. I was not truly alone in some thoughts. Oh, and this does not that a busting gal would be purely a mean bitch causing pain just for pains sake, but would be something of an.. artist... of busting and take visible pleasure in a well-done bust.. or more. It is fantasy, after all.

Now, that's just me and my story. I have no idea how others might have acquired such an... unusual... interest. I am curious, but it's not something one asks about in most company. I can, of course, see how guys might mix pain & pleasure and wind up with the interest. How women might develop a busting interest I can only guess. Power trip? Just find it humorous? Revenge fantasies? Something else? No idea.