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Severe Panic Attacks and Feeling Unwell...
2 years ago
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I don't want to make a habit of posting things about my life. The last thing I want is to make people fed up with constant updates that perhaps people aren't as interested in.
It's just that I've been feeling horrible anxiety these past couple of weeks. I'm having near-constant Panic Attacks, some of them really bad, and it's been affecting me a lot in the day. I feel a tightness in my chest, rapid heart palpitations, and a horrible feeling of doom and despair. I sometimes feel so afraid, almost like something is coming to end my life. And I'm living in constant fear of what might happen to me.
I feel like such a nervous wreck right now, and though I'm trying to take life slowly, it's just been one major hassle. I'm afraid of what this might spell with my writing. I'm close to finishing Chapter 3 of "A Girl and Her Dragon", which I hope to finally post this weekend. I feel upset and disappointed in myself for not having finished that already since I did sort of promise it damn near close to a month ago. But life has been getting in the way so much.
I still hold to my promise that I won't leave any projects half-finished. I still have the drive to keep writing and to do commission work for people who'd like a story. But when I feel my heart start to palpitate, or the familiar skin-crawling feeling of impending doom, I try to take a rest and make sure that I don't reach a point where I have an actual attack. It's hard enough to live with near-constant chest tightness and feelings of intense anxiety, but even more so when symptoms of the other condition are happening at the same time.
I hope to see a psychiatrist sometime next week and see if there's anything that I can do to relieve this near-constant anxiety. And here's hoping that I can post "Tales of Dyannor Remastered - A Girl and Her Dragon Chapter 3" on Friday, and an entry from "Pokephilia Story" this weekend as well.
I thank you all for continuing to support me. There's been a lot happening these past few months, and I am certain you guys are looking forward to some stories. Perhaps poetry can take a backseat for a while so that I can focus more on my stories - like Pokémon Story and Tales of Dyannor. But that'll have to wait for when I get better.
Let's hope that the end of August brings some good tidings. I'm just super tired right now. So tired.
Sincerely,
J.C. Solis
It's just that I've been feeling horrible anxiety these past couple of weeks. I'm having near-constant Panic Attacks, some of them really bad, and it's been affecting me a lot in the day. I feel a tightness in my chest, rapid heart palpitations, and a horrible feeling of doom and despair. I sometimes feel so afraid, almost like something is coming to end my life. And I'm living in constant fear of what might happen to me.
I feel like such a nervous wreck right now, and though I'm trying to take life slowly, it's just been one major hassle. I'm afraid of what this might spell with my writing. I'm close to finishing Chapter 3 of "A Girl and Her Dragon", which I hope to finally post this weekend. I feel upset and disappointed in myself for not having finished that already since I did sort of promise it damn near close to a month ago. But life has been getting in the way so much.
I still hold to my promise that I won't leave any projects half-finished. I still have the drive to keep writing and to do commission work for people who'd like a story. But when I feel my heart start to palpitate, or the familiar skin-crawling feeling of impending doom, I try to take a rest and make sure that I don't reach a point where I have an actual attack. It's hard enough to live with near-constant chest tightness and feelings of intense anxiety, but even more so when symptoms of the other condition are happening at the same time.
I hope to see a psychiatrist sometime next week and see if there's anything that I can do to relieve this near-constant anxiety. And here's hoping that I can post "Tales of Dyannor Remastered - A Girl and Her Dragon Chapter 3" on Friday, and an entry from "Pokephilia Story" this weekend as well.
I thank you all for continuing to support me. There's been a lot happening these past few months, and I am certain you guys are looking forward to some stories. Perhaps poetry can take a backseat for a while so that I can focus more on my stories - like Pokémon Story and Tales of Dyannor. But that'll have to wait for when I get better.
Let's hope that the end of August brings some good tidings. I'm just super tired right now. So tired.
Sincerely,
J.C. Solis
Honestly, I feel rather horrible mentally and physically. It's a feeling that I haven't felt in years, and is slowly coming back. But I have hope and faith that I'll get better again.