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2 years ago
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Hey everyone.
As some of you might already know, I have not been well for a couple of years now, and it's constantly feeling like there's no end in sight. I have developed PTSD from past events and struggle with it every day. I've become overwhelmed with paranoia and the stress is already starting to take its toll.
I have virtually no support here in Arizona, and most days I'm wishing for an easy way out, but I simply can't bring myself to do it. The way it feels is like if you're 100% suicidal with an honest danger to yourself, people will take you more seriously, where if you're like me and can't go through with it, nobody will ever come to your aid or listen.
All I ever wanted in life was to be loved, until this fucked-up fandom showed me that its air of caring and love was a massive lie.
I need to get out of this place. I don't know what will happen if I can't...
As some of you might already know, I have not been well for a couple of years now, and it's constantly feeling like there's no end in sight. I have developed PTSD from past events and struggle with it every day. I've become overwhelmed with paranoia and the stress is already starting to take its toll.
I have virtually no support here in Arizona, and most days I'm wishing for an easy way out, but I simply can't bring myself to do it. The way it feels is like if you're 100% suicidal with an honest danger to yourself, people will take you more seriously, where if you're like me and can't go through with it, nobody will ever come to your aid or listen.
All I ever wanted in life was to be loved, until this fucked-up fandom showed me that its air of caring and love was a massive lie.
I need to get out of this place. I don't know what will happen if I can't...
I'm pretty much stuck myself, with only a few things keeping me sane for everyone's sake. At some point I'll have a way out, but it's a struggle until then, especially with conflicting thoughts and a dilemma.
You'll get through it man, you're not alone with societal struggles.