So not really sure what to write on here. I have been in and out of depression, being lonely, feeling like shit at times. I miss my mom greatly and I keep having bouts of frustration on her passing. I feel our medical systems have failed her. It's been very stressful here as my dad has to take cancer meds that affect him having energy to do things around the house, so I help wherever I can. It gets super overwhelming but I try to compartmentalize where possible. I have been going to cons and I traveled twice out to SoCal to see my friend for golden state fur con and another mid summer visit. I just got home from Ifc and next week I will be at Furry Migration and then Midwest fur fest.

I know I may come off distant to many especially in the past and honestly I have a hard time keeping conversations going or mentally staying organized as my brain is so scattered. I really feel alone a lot of the time and it's really been hard coping with things. Im grateful for my friends who have stuck by me and my family. I worry more for my dad than myself because he lost someone who he has been with for almost 50 years. I cannot even begin to imagine that pain. He's survived vietnam and so forth, but that still has to hit deep.

If anyone see's me at any fur cons and wants to say hello, id be more than happy to see them. If I may seem a bit spacey, this is just a sliver of what I've been through.