I get so little time to sit down and think about what drawing means to me. Is it selfish to just keep drawing my own ideas, things that are pleasing to me? Or is it merely foolish?

I never technically closed commissions, but I haven't been announcing I'm open either. I've just been quietly denying it to people who aren't coming to me with ideas that interest me. I'm being selfish like that, I know. But I don't know what drawing means to me.

I miss getting the chance to just focus on appealing drawings that happen to resemble humans becoming animals, and not focus on who my audience is or what meaning I'm trying to convey or what plot beat I want to hit. I don't miss the constant tension of not getting enough feedback and trying to get into other people's heads. Some part of me does enjoy commissions, not just for the money, but for the joy of pleasing people. But does my art please people? Or are they just polite?

It's so much easier just to please myself, with some good old tapir TF sketching.

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