Hi everyone, this is Maxamilion here with some... well.... not so happy news. I've decided that I want to end my life. I wish I could say recent events sparked this decision, but it's only a symptom. A symptom of a virus I been dealing with for the last 6 years and honestly I'm at the point where nothing I say or do will matter anymore, I don't matter anymore and I'm sick of people holding me back and forcing me to live a life of misery and depression. And it all stated in 2016/17. when my ex-ex-boyfriend cheated on me with another guy who I thought was my friend. Then had the audacity to dictate how I show my body because to him me being nude in fursuit is fine but if i have my head on and all my clothes off/show my body that's a no no and it's like who gave you the right to dictate how I show my body to my fans/followers. so after 51 weeks being together we officially broke up August 1st and it broke me a bit but I picked my self back up.

Then my second boyfriend or my ex-boyfriend we lasted some 20 months together and honestly he was great but I also felt the relationship was one sided and alot of stuff that happened in our relationship while it wasn't too bad one thing sticks in my craw and that was when he went to AC 2018 and had sex with this one woman. Now we we're in an open relationship, so that wouldn't be bad if she didn't legit laugh in my face after words like the situation was funny. While consent was given she gave me the vibe as if she did cheat on me with him ie or cucked me etc. So that actively plays a role in what happen in my current relationship which I'll explain in a moment.

Then Covid-19 hit in March 2020 AFTER me and my ex broke up in December 31 2019... yep New Years fucking eve. But anyways we did remain friends and even had one or two hook ups since that was considered safe in a "no contact/touchy" society. but he fuck up when he dissed my mom when he found out she was gonna room with us at Furrydelphia 2021.

Speaking of Covid-19 around the time the vaccines came out my dad who was an anti-vaxxer didn't believe in covid ended up in the hospital from, you guess it covid-19... and after 10 days he died December 27 2020... So yeah @_@ and then my mom , aunt and step dad... basically my whole household got it. but it most likely came from my dad's funeral. We cleared the virus mid-February 2021 which was perfect because 2 weeks after that I wanted to have a birthday party with some close vaccinated friends, and this is where the first controversy comes in. Now the link was posted publicly but it clearly said only those vaccinated and close to me should sign up and only had 10 slots. you all know this story, person by the name of Nuibella and Kabewolf took this posts and said "fuck these people" and I was cancelled. Now I been cancelled b4 but this hit different because I wanted to celebrate my birthday with friends and I got cancelled despite the fact that everyone in attendance was supposed to be vaccinated. Even more so it was dubbed a super spreader event despite the fact that it was >10 unlike the fucking night club scenes with 3000 and 5000 non mask wearing mother fuckers in new york and Connecticut at the time. So yeah that was... fun :/ but it's about to get way worse.

So the moment you all been waiting for, and why I want to end my life... So what I'm about to tell you isn't really about me directly, but it does effect me and why I've come to this decision. In September 2021 I hosted the very first FurLooza. For those who don't know and haven't seen every post FurLooza is a Furbowl that I'm proud to have been running for 2 years now along side Icarus, Aritimo, Zac Dog and my boyfriend Sly. FurLooza 1 is actually where we met and me, Sly and Icarus would be friends for quite some time. So much so we went to both ANE and Furpoc 2022 together, but it was at FWA 2022 that Icarus pushed us together saying we'd be perfect for each other. And I kinda liked him and he kinda liked me and we decided then and there we'd be a couple, this makes FWA our anniversary con. As great as our relationship became there was a hiccup and it happened earlier this year. Now my boyfriend is over sexual and I like that in a person. I don't wanna date someone who'se vanilla or boring, if I'm horny and you're horny let's be horny together. I understand people not being up for it all the time, but that would be a great hinderance in our relationship. Why am I mentioning this? because the following information is being made public and it's important to the main subject of this journal. I apologize I know you wants this kept private but the world needs to know about this and how it made me feel. In late January 2023 My boyfriend admitted to me that one of his flings that he had at the time was a woman. Remember when I said my ex cheated on my with a woman? Welp it happened again, only this was an open relationship. Unlike my previous relationship where I was uncomfortable with my ex being with anyone but me or my friends, I tried to be more open and understanding with this situation, that was until he revealed that she gave him C-word. So he got tested and he ended up with C-word so he asked me to go get tested. and ladies and gentlemen I ended up having fucking C-word, so yeah him and some girl gave me c-word and I had to get treatment for it and cleared the virus in 10-14 days.

Now I wasn't upset I had C-word it was a huge inconvenience and I had to tell a bunch of friends to get tested that I been with, this happened b4 in 2018 when me and my ex had a fling with this guy, but that guy ended up graduating to HIV and has been trying to spread it to everyone in the NYC area... so fuck that guy. we don't talk about Bruno. So I wasn't upset because of that, the real reason I was upset was for the second time my boyfriend current ex or otherwise ended up in be with a female. And I dunno if it was jealousy or whatever the fuck is going on but I haven't been with a woman at that point for 10 to 11 years, around about when I was in High school. So to see this happen twice honestly just pissed me off. but we survived we got thru that, but coming up next is the biggest shocker that I've had to deal with in this situation.

Thread: https://twitter.com/bruisebunnies/s.....285405484?s=35
So last week I'm minding my own business, I'm bout to splat some fest (Splatoon 3) and the next thing you know I get a notification on Telegram to of all people remove my boyfriend from the chat my immediate reaction is very bias, like no fuck that why am I removing a loved one from the chat without reason. welp there kinda was a reason. In enters Bruise Bunny, so from what I gather *at least from what he told me* he and her talked alot and the twitter post about him had a pic of his goat character he wanted a fursuit head of because we're fursuit enthusiasts and like commissioning suits etc. etc. BUT this post had a legit picture of his dick in it. So basically he sent her a dick pic, that's not a big deal... right? well how about she received it without prior consent; and that's how this episode starts. So I said something about it, but I was Anti-Bruise.and the reason why I stood against her is because although I don't condone her receiving dick pics, I feel like if this was a first offense it should stay behind closed doors. At least that's what I thought initially, because yall talk to each other so common sense should be not to report every little thing someone does on twitter where you know the levels of venom people spew out over the smallest shit so I felt that until more evidence came out it's not that big a deal. I again don't condone it but it's not something that should've at least initially what I thought been blown up the way it was. But slowly that opinion has started to change, because he's being #MeToo'd and I'll be honest when people Me Too I don't believe you at least not right away. I'm a guy that like proof and evidence. You don't just jump on Twitter and say "me too" and I just automatically believe you because victims rights. I'm not saying don't take the allegations seriously, but don't believe them automatically either, a person's entire life could be at stake over stuff like this... but it's is 2023 so people could care less about your life as long as the victim is heard. And I don't have a problem with that but also if someone is accused of this stuff and found innocent, you just ruined someone's entire life and for what :/ but I'm just speaking my opinion, there is evidence here so he's clearly not innocent. but until others accusing him of touching groping sending nudes etc come forth with evidence the only credible person in this entire situations is Bruise Bunny. Now as bad as this is, you'd think that's it just a dick pic then we'd move on after he's been pretty much cancelled right? Brace your anus, because someone posted him being in a Zoophile's explicit chat o.o [At this moment I want to just take a drill to my eye balls one by one until my brain is leaking juices]

So someone by the Titter handle RicketRacc posted some "daming" allegations that my boyfriend is a zoophile because he's in a zoophile chat :/ This is the same level of "If you have an inkbunny you're a pedophile" or "If you're into feral art you're a zoophile" two mentalities I'll never understand because just because you're in something doesn't mean you are something. The 'Walks like a duck talks like a duck' metaphor doesn't wash with me, because accusing someone of being a zoophile is literally the worst thing you can acuse someone of, worse then being accused of a pedo... nope being a pedophile is still worse sorry bout that, but yeah remember Kero the wolf? So anywho, I started getting comments about how I hit the jackpot with this one any not in a good way. So here's why I'm calling bullshit on this post, I reveiwed it a bit an a couple things stood out to me. The name of the chat is "Where The Wild Things Are" yeah that was a movie once, but also no chat description? the list of members are repetitive or bot/alt accounts. On top of that you know that cute Z that most zoophiles are known for only one person in the chat has it and if you're admin's name is "CanineFucker" Flat out you're mental R word no apologies that is what you are... but I don't think anyone is that fucking stupid. But assuming this chat does exist 3 things must've happened. Either this is staged, a real good edit job, he was added without consent to look bad *because that is a thing you can do on telegram add people without consent* I was in an anti-ukrain and a bitcoin chat once and fuck both those chats, or least likely this chat did exist and he was in it which considering Icarus and Sly would be in jail if a zoophile was standing next to them because they'd kill a bitch in 2.5 seconds I severely doubt that he joined on his own volition. Again I'm just listing the possibilities. he's neither guilt or innocent but if you want to prove him guilty Ricket you might need to drop more evidence my friend because I'm not buying what you posted. And that's my non-biased opinion, if you bought those same screenshots to a court room a judge would throw your case out no joke. twitter might believe everything in 2.5 second but I'm not everyone on twitter.

Final thoughts: If you got this far down the journal praise be on to you for reading this wall of text. I was gonna do a video about it *something people would pay more attention to since they can't read* but I choose not to because this entire situation has made me upset I wish there was something I could do to make what my boyfriend did right, but what is not an option *at least not yet* is to quote "drop him like hot rocks" you don't get to dictate how I start or end my relationships and this is a tactic the fandom has done alot with someone they hate. You gotta drop em like hot rock and if you stand against us you're the problem too. But I will say this, this situation has not helped my depression. You know what I really wanted in my life I wanted a wife and some kids and a house and a happy life, but ever since i joined the fandom it's been nothing but drama, and even though the situation doesn't involve me directly it does effect me. It's hilarious how many people like Ellie realized whom he was dating and just immediately started attacking me for no reasons given. I may never be happy and my boyfriend doing stupid shit like this just solidifies as much. the best course of action in this situation sis just ending my life.

At this point I'm cancelling all fur meets until further notice or indefinitely and if I'm found at the bottom of the Hudson River no one will care because my life isn't worth living, because everytime I try a modicum of happiness it's striken down by furry twitter So I think a ticker tape parade is in order for my death. I'll be at Cotton's funeral home if you need to find me and that's if my body is found in the Hudson. I wanna see my dad again anyways because I can't take one more second of people with not much else better to do then harass people thanks to twitter weather those allegations have merit or not. Thought I will say this I've requested Sly not to apologies to Bruise because people will say he's "sorry he got caught" so I'll do it instead. I'm sorry he sent those disturbing images to you it was wrong of him to do that and I hope he learns his lesson. If you can ever find the time to talk to him again I hope he can say that himself, but I don't think the internet is owed an apology just YOU. but that's all the energy I can muster as I no longer feel I belong on this plain of existence. I'm never gonna have a wife or even a girlfriend, I'm never gonna have kids and I'm never gonna have my own home because my life is just one gigantic disappointment after another an dI just want this nightmare to end