This has been on my mind the past couple or even more weeks with work as of now, but I'm getting sick of my job here at Panda Express. At first, it felt hard, but fair to earn my money on the job with new people to meet and workplace to settle into. Almost a year has passed since I was first hired on the job and quit my old one at Marcus Theaters and what do I think of it now? While the pay is better, I can't say the work environment has been a huge step up after our old GM left us due to life issues, to keep the details light on that. We have a new GM and he...really isn't all that great, from what I'm noticing. Not many people seem to like him outside of the other managers on the team, he feels a bit assertive to me to make himself look like our boss, and he has made some odd decisions in sprucing up the place that didn't originally need it. What hurts, though, is that my hours got severely limited when he joined our team and this came at the worst time as I not only had a con to save up for and a vacation, but I also had to pay off my car insurance(thank Arceus mom stepped in to help with that). I know he is doing his best to help the place out, but after what happened on Tuesday(Sept. 19th), I am considering a job change.

I've learned the best I can from here and while I could pick up cooking or learn Back of House stuff, the environment as is hasn't been very gracious on me. I'm put on mostly weekends, only now did they decide to bump my hours up a bit after more than a month of getting 1-2 days a week for scheduled shifts, and that resulted in me picking up a lot of shifts at other locales. And as for the environment I skipped out on explaining, I often feel ignored if I get on a topic I'm interested in or try to be general about it, but other people seem to get more attention when they talk. And the kicker to this that makes it frustrating a majority of the time to talk around here is this: Language Barrier. A majority of my co-workers speak Mexican(please tell me I said that right-) or Spanish and I hardly know any words of that language. I didn't think I'd need to learn another language just to have a normal chat with others on the job, but they can speak English too. Yet, most default to speaking Spanish at times for reasons I'm not entirely sure of, but it makes me feel alienated on the job - just like how the theater once did to me when I was stuck ushering with either jerks or braindead employees. Thankfully I haven't worked with anyone that has been braindead, but I've certainly worked with a manager who - if I may be blunt about this - is a pushy bitch on the job to me ever since I started working here.

Lets call her "G" for short - and for those who know, you know who I am referring to. G has often rushed me to get stuff done on the job even around the time I first started working at Panda, expecting me to be done with things at an unrealistic pace. For example, mop the entire dinning room and bathrooms in 10 minites while changing the bucket 2 times so the water is fresh. With how it takes 2-3 minutes each time to just fill up the bucket, I don't understand how anyone can finish that in 10 minutes. But she's pushed me far too many times and often gave me such a whiny tone over things, often times asking me why I hate her. I didn't want to hate her, but she kept pushing my buttons on the job in a myriad of ways. Often not leaving my orders I need at DT where I need them, but instead leaves them farther away from my reach(Not helpful if there is a constant timer over my head); ignoring things I say a majority of the time and often says she can't understand me; butts into something I'm saying without letting me finish; and lastly: Getting jealous of me not gifting her something for Thanksgiving when I was only gifting my former GM something as thanks for hiring me on the job. I shit you not, she got so petty and jealous over that when I was trying to keep the gift for my GM for a secret that I think, to this day, she holds a grudge against me over it. And Tuesday reminded me after a while of not working with her how much of a dick she can be towards me.

To try to keep this short, I was often ignored when talking on the job back on the 19th, even when discussing my scheduling with the new GM and G as they're in charge of doing the schedules for everyone. On top of that, G decided to close my drawer at DT while I was in the middle of finishing up a task, demanding I go count my drawer then and there despite almost being done. The GM said while fiddling with a broken drawer beneath my register that he'll finish my task, but soon as I came back, everything was as I left it. He didn't do jack shit, but then when it came to tossing out the cups of teriyaki sauce, G and the GM couldn't agree on what to do. G asked me "Doesn't the sauce harden and become goopy?" I was trying to say it does under heat, but she butted in and wouldn't let me finish my sentence, causing me to get even more annoyed and snap at her a bit. The GM called me out on this as there wasn't a need to be rude, but that didn't feel right when the two can't decide on the sauce and the schedules - another problem I've been having as of late with the job. I just kept quiet after that and finished everything else before leaving, but the following morning, I see the following week's schedule already. Not next week, the week after, which is weird cause rarely do they post schedules in advance - and I found out NEITHER of them listened to me on wanting Sunday, Oct. 1st either off or to come at 4 and put me on for 2 till close. They only ever give me Sundays as all day shifts, but it's usually a day where we don't have a lot of employees scheduled and we get rushes more commonly on this day. They only value me for the days they can barely schedule anyone, but from what I heard, other employees are getting fed up with how hours have been handled here as well. And so am I now after all this shit I've been through.

So here I am, just not sure what to do as a guy who is about to turn 25 in a few weeks. At this point, I gotta get a new job cause this one is NOT cutting it anymore with how sloppy management is and finding no way of winning certain things on the job - either getting something done fast and sloppy or go slow and get it done right. It often feels wrong in both cases for me and I'm so fucking sick of feeling in the wrong for shit I decide to do with myself. This job has been making me feel that and even other decisions outside it, but this is about my job. I was feeling a bit more pumped earlier in the month, but not as much anymore. So I plan to apply to other places and PRAY they take me in as I want something and more interesting than working fast food for another several months. If you managed to read all this, just let me know by saying "Marma"(I just came up with it cause I got nothing clever to say). And if you got any advice for bulking up a resume, I'd like to know just so I can boost my chances of getting my next job. I'll still be working my ass off at Panda for as long as I can, but I'm either hoping for a new job or some miracle change to occur. So please, just...pray for me.