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So this change has been coming for a while.
2 years ago
So, I've mentioned a few times, I think here too, that I actually regret becoming a shadewing. I'm tired of constantly being mistaken for a pony or a dragon or a changeling, and yeah, that last part was partly my fault for making the face so similar, but come on people, is it really so hard to look at the rest of the body and realize these are two very different species? It's getting so tiresome. Also, I miss being a squirrel a lot. I keep imagining myself as Midi sometimes, but he's firmly a mascot now, so I don't want to go back to using him as my sona, but I need a squirrel for myself.
So, I've finally decided on how I want to look as a squirrel. I'm working on the pic and will have it up probably this weekend. Certain key features are staying, like the teal fur, red scarf, and green eyes. I'll still be using Shadewing as my sona's surname too. Lore-wise, this is unusual for a kholu, so I'm just going to say he had a similar rough upbringing and decided to pick the name because of his unusual fur color, abandoning his original name.
I'll still keep the shadewing form around for certain occasions, cuz I know some people would miss him if he were gone for good, and I honestly would too, but he's going to be demoted to an alt. The squirrel will become my new main. I know this will probably come as a shock to some people, but it hopefully won't be any different than when I became a shadewing in the first place. At least this time, my name is staying the same.
Maybe the two sonas are the same and the squirrel can just turn into a shadewing. I dunno, I'll work on it. I just can't deny any longer that the squirrel part of me never went away and is always how I really saw myself, and it's time I gave it the proper form it deserves.
I need this. That's all I can say.
So, I've finally decided on how I want to look as a squirrel. I'm working on the pic and will have it up probably this weekend. Certain key features are staying, like the teal fur, red scarf, and green eyes. I'll still be using Shadewing as my sona's surname too. Lore-wise, this is unusual for a kholu, so I'm just going to say he had a similar rough upbringing and decided to pick the name because of his unusual fur color, abandoning his original name.
I'll still keep the shadewing form around for certain occasions, cuz I know some people would miss him if he were gone for good, and I honestly would too, but he's going to be demoted to an alt. The squirrel will become my new main. I know this will probably come as a shock to some people, but it hopefully won't be any different than when I became a shadewing in the first place. At least this time, my name is staying the same.
Maybe the two sonas are the same and the squirrel can just turn into a shadewing. I dunno, I'll work on it. I just can't deny any longer that the squirrel part of me never went away and is always how I really saw myself, and it's time I gave it the proper form it deserves.
I need this. That's all I can say.
Can't wait to see the new squirrel design! ^^
And, I am glad that you're not fully getting rid of the shadewing form, would miss em, but I totally understand how ya feel and am wishing ya the best ^^
One, make sure your fursona is what you want. People have given me shit because Ryker 'looks too soft' or because Ryker has paw pads as a dragon. Your fursona is supposed to reflect your vision. Squirrel or Shadewing, you're still an awesome dude.
Two, you're not the only one that bounces between fursonas. You've known me a while; I used to swap between a tiger and a dragon fursona. Eventually, I came to adopt Ryker as my main fursona. As we grow and learn, we change. It only makes sense that your fursona would change to reflect who you are and who you are becoming.
You're like the protagonist from The Golden Compass. The protagonist's daemon kept changing and shifting. Go with what feels best.
Here's a suggestion. If you're considering staying with your Shadewing, maybe commission him drawn in a different style. Maybe more realistic? If all that's bothering you is how others see him, a change of art style might help.
With that in mind, everyone changes. Who you are right now isn't who you are 5-6 years ago, 2 years ago, or even 6 months ago. You flexed your creativity to create Shadewings, at least Kelvin. I haven't paid close attention to how much effort you put into your own original species. But something that you took pride and joy in initially may not last and perhaps you've lost the passion.
Other people have an impact on you whether you like it or not. The folks saying Shadewings look like ponies or dragons are making you rethink Kelvin's design. The exact criticisms or even just out-loud observations from others may or may not be valid. But having to rethink how Kelvin looks or how the Shadewing species as a whole looks is a good thing. Maybe it's your mindset or maybe it's not, but wouldn't you always like to get better? Is 10/10 achievable to you?
My character creation and design process is very detached. I don't see any of my characters as me and I don't see myself as them. The extent to which characters are like me is that I created them, so there's inevitable inspiration that goes into particular characters. I can't completely detach a character from myself.
But I know the furry fandom is full of people where adopting a fursona *shudder shudder* is the norm. Some people just want to make an idealized version of themselves, often with no further thoughts beyond aesthetics. Everyone's different, so I can't say why each and every furry I observe out in the wild adopts a particular appearance, or why they have other characters, or what purposes those characters serve.
Kelvin in his current form served, and perhaps still serves, a particular purpose to you. I infer from your journal that you've put questions on the table: What is Kelvin Shadewing for? Why did you create him initially? What should you do with him now?
As someone who is--again, outside looking in through the window, I have no clue how social or anti-social you are. You may have a decent number of friends you talk to or you probably talk to only a select few. Maybe you've entirely internalized your struggle with Kelvin's design and the Shadewings' designs if they're separate enough. Or maybe you've had a lot of talking with others about Kelvin's future.
Kelvin is ultimately your character though. You decide what to do with him. Your actual friends will support your decisions. They may not like it, but you making a new character isn't going to kill them. They'll get over it.
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ONE OF US!! >:3