I have chronic depression, I get depressed periodically and rarely meet optimistic feels. Literally for the most minimal thing I trigger, and then I'm tired or stressed for days and/or fall to the drink. I took my meds, but I don't know at what point is normal to feel like one are in a limbo like place. For much time I thought that it is normal, that the people not are in a stable place or happy in the goods, that are mostly sad. But now I don't know if it is like it, I had that chronic thing since the childhood and is logic that someone like me don't know how a healthy person is or how they see the world and the things or nobody is healthy at all.
I never got suicidal thoughts but yes a "not want to live today" like thoughts where I don't want to leave the bed, or get communication, like disappear for a while and then back to the duties, because I love to be alive, and I love me. I ever think that its behavior is normal, but I don't know at what point "not want to live" for an entire week for a little thing that happened or live in autopilot thing is ok.
I want to know if it will stop one day.
End of the weepy stuff
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