Just because I've been a bit quiet lately and not posting as often as I used to, I thought I'd give an explanation about what's been going on with me during this whole year.

Well... I can honestly say that this year has been the absolute worst year of my entire life (currently, at least). After dealing with a bunch of BS during the end of last year, my life has basically just been nonstop drama. Dealing with emotional abuse, a broken family, sabotage, betrayal from people I thought I could trust. That's about all I can get into without mentioning all the gritty details. I never wanted to get involved in any of this and couldn't understand why this was all happening to me. So it basically spiraled me into a depression.

While dealing with all this, I've noticed my work and passion for drawing was slipping fast. What used to take me a few days to finish a drawing would now stretch out to 1-2 weeks. My love for making comics dwindled and it was hard for me to get myself to create anything more elaborate like I used to. I've sometimes found myself just starting at a blank canvas, or just watching YT videos for hours instead of being productive. I also found myself playing videogames WAYYYYY more often than I should. I guess I just wanted something to distract myself from all the BS. I think in the back of my head, I was just like, "what's the point?".

I finally had enough and decided to just get away from everyone. I moved away discreetly, and now I finally have a place of my own, where I'm hoping I can emotionally heal and rebuild what I lost. I feel much, much happier here, but... now I'm kinda broke lmao xD I have to rebuy a lot of necessities and I also have many more expenses to pay for, so I'm actually thinking about trying to do some commissions again to help subsidize the cost. Truth be told, after not taking commissions for a whole year or two, I started feeling a bit nostalgic for them haha. My only worry is that because I haven't done them in so long, I don't know if they can sell at the prices I used to set them at. But I'll try to do some test runs and see what happens. :')

During this ordeal, I learned a lot about the importance of trusting and relying on yourself, and that its okay to let go of family and people you used to love, especially if they're toxic. My hope is that my mental state will start improving after this, and that I can go back to being more social online and making art and animations as frequently as I used to. There's so much I wanted to do, but all this crap held me back from it for so long. But now that I'm finally free from it, I'm wishing for the best. :>