I'm really extremely tired of living with my abusers and living in what I thought was my safe haven at first turned hellhole after my abusive family got evicted and was forced to move in with me. I was kicked out of their house when I was 18 over a dispute around Christmas time and I was escorted by the cops...3 years later they get evicted and move in with me despite my apprehension. It's been over 7 years now and my life has become a living hell. They have no intention of leaving and have insisted that this apartment belongs to them now. Abused physically, emotionally and mentally, threatened by cop calls, belittled, berated, mocked, trying to control my every action and now forbidding me to access my own kitchen and the food in it. It's getting harder and harder to stay motivated and keep going as a whole. I'm so beaten down and distraught. I'm losing my patience and sanity. I can't take it anymore. I'm tired of crying my eyes out to sleep and getting into arguments over the smallest and simplest of things that are trivial and don't need to escalate, I'm tired of having s̶u̶i̶c̶i̶d̶a̶l̶ ̶t̶h̶o̶u̶g̶h̶t̶s̶...group therapy doesn't work-theres no changing these people and their actions. I'm done. I'm just done.

My deepest apologies to my commissioners, I can't afford refunds at this moment in time. I'm so sorry for the prolonged wait but once I find a place to move into I can resume any work that I owe. I'm in a desperate situation right now and I need immediate results to get out of here.

I will be setting up for donations come the following week and a growth drive. I Need to get out of here. I'm done. I'm not putting up with this shit anymore.