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2023 end of year update
2 years ago
Bunny Ears
Hello folks,
First I want to thank all of you for your continued support. Regardless of how I feel or what's going on in my life, doing this is a huge passion and makes a lot of the life-garbage tolerable!
Second I want to thank my commissioners and everybody waiting on my queue for their patience. I know a lot of you have been waiting quite a while for a commission, and that's on me. I should have been more steadfast in telling folks what I can and cannot handle. I don't think having an open form/queue is helping me, it only seems to be stressing me out as I see the requests come in. I should be flattered, and I really am, but I know that I need to do a better job of managing my time.
I had hoped to be a bit more efficient by now, but 2023 was a curveball that I did not anticipate. I was essentially evicted from the apartment I was renting because I complained too much about the noise from my neighbors [technically they didn't renew my lease, and yes I exhausted my legal options but to no avail], so I had to move back home with my mother. I am living at one end of the house with half an apartment in boxes stacked in my home office. I have a sliver of walking space to get to my tiny computer setup. It is downright depressing. The day job has been one work fire after another, one enormous project after another, deadlines that are way too soon, and just the general sense that I am wasting my life there. I do know that a change is in the air as far as my employment goes. I don't know when or how, but I am keeping an eye on the exit sign.
Add to that the general business that happens with being in a multi-faith household, the string of Jewish holidays that happen around September/October, the work deadline right after that, prepping for Anthrocon and later Furpocalypse, the whole household getting covid in the middle of the high holidays, now we're at thanksgiving's door and I got some bullshit sinus infection that just pours gross s*** into my lungs for the past two weeks, the circuit breaker blowing last week leaving half the apartment in the dark overnight, the interest rates in the country essentially barring me from owning a house at this moment in time, and xmas around the corner..... It's a bit much. I am pretty sure I've been battling some form of depression this year, and for sure the stress has aggravated my ADHD tendencies.
I suppose the silver lining in this case is that such a storm forces me to take stock of my life, what I want to continue doing and what I want to stop. I think it's been a long time coming. All this is to say that I am NOT quitting 3d art. If anything it has highlighted how much I need art in my life. I've even considered writing/recording music again, a career I thought I buried a long time ago. We'll see what 2024 has to offer, but one thing is for certain - I am through the storm at this point. Now begins the time of repairing and rebuilding. And I will come back stronger than ever.
No need to message me out of concern, I assure you I am alive and physically fit. Mentally I could use a month-long vacation but hey, I'm taking off for Chanukah, so that's something at least! Here's to 2024 - may you be a gentle dom or an easy bitch!
First I want to thank all of you for your continued support. Regardless of how I feel or what's going on in my life, doing this is a huge passion and makes a lot of the life-garbage tolerable!
Second I want to thank my commissioners and everybody waiting on my queue for their patience. I know a lot of you have been waiting quite a while for a commission, and that's on me. I should have been more steadfast in telling folks what I can and cannot handle. I don't think having an open form/queue is helping me, it only seems to be stressing me out as I see the requests come in. I should be flattered, and I really am, but I know that I need to do a better job of managing my time.
I had hoped to be a bit more efficient by now, but 2023 was a curveball that I did not anticipate. I was essentially evicted from the apartment I was renting because I complained too much about the noise from my neighbors [technically they didn't renew my lease, and yes I exhausted my legal options but to no avail], so I had to move back home with my mother. I am living at one end of the house with half an apartment in boxes stacked in my home office. I have a sliver of walking space to get to my tiny computer setup. It is downright depressing. The day job has been one work fire after another, one enormous project after another, deadlines that are way too soon, and just the general sense that I am wasting my life there. I do know that a change is in the air as far as my employment goes. I don't know when or how, but I am keeping an eye on the exit sign.
Add to that the general business that happens with being in a multi-faith household, the string of Jewish holidays that happen around September/October, the work deadline right after that, prepping for Anthrocon and later Furpocalypse, the whole household getting covid in the middle of the high holidays, now we're at thanksgiving's door and I got some bullshit sinus infection that just pours gross s*** into my lungs for the past two weeks, the circuit breaker blowing last week leaving half the apartment in the dark overnight, the interest rates in the country essentially barring me from owning a house at this moment in time, and xmas around the corner..... It's a bit much. I am pretty sure I've been battling some form of depression this year, and for sure the stress has aggravated my ADHD tendencies.
I suppose the silver lining in this case is that such a storm forces me to take stock of my life, what I want to continue doing and what I want to stop. I think it's been a long time coming. All this is to say that I am NOT quitting 3d art. If anything it has highlighted how much I need art in my life. I've even considered writing/recording music again, a career I thought I buried a long time ago. We'll see what 2024 has to offer, but one thing is for certain - I am through the storm at this point. Now begins the time of repairing and rebuilding. And I will come back stronger than ever.
No need to message me out of concern, I assure you I am alive and physically fit. Mentally I could use a month-long vacation but hey, I'm taking off for Chanukah, so that's something at least! Here's to 2024 - may you be a gentle dom or an easy bitch!
I'm glad you have overcome the ugly parts, have a great holiday. big hug!
Its my hope that clarity and opportunity will get you where you wanna be! Much hugs, Im glad youre gunna keep on with your creativity and art.