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2 years ago
Some of you might know I travelled to Poland from UK in September. I was meant to go back about month ago, but I was temporarily semi-kicked out from my sis house, so her bf parents [and their 4 dogs] might stay there for a while.
Therefore I'm using the few months time I'm stuck in Poland to do few things... Like getting driving license [being 30 and not being able to drive a car is kinda hmmm inconvienient and most of all in this day and age it's a basic skill that all should have ^^'" ].
I applied to business course/contest organised by US Embassy in Poland, I'm hoping it will give me push to open merch shop. I'm to indecisive and want to do too much at the same time... ;x Though, I know for sure I will want to make custom art dolls/plushies. Something like a BJD dolls of Fursonas, but made mostly from fur fabrics and instead of joints having a wired based for posable limbs. And I will want to make merch from eco fabrics, recycled ones and alternatives to real leather.
On top of all that as soon as I manage to figure out medical insurance I will be going for bariartic surgery. For last few years I was mostly stuck home and went out less and less and yeah now is time I HAVE to change that and work on myself [having PCOS and insulin resistence is not helping]. As person who used to do sports [basketball, teakwon do, archery] I feel horrible that stupid short walk out tires me out >> *vent alert* My husband didn't want to take me to visit his family since I was too fat for it.... Few years later I gained more weight and I started to get idea in my head to be too embarrassed to visit my own family [I didn't for about 4 years+]. Anyone who been plus size or have a closed ones that are knows that it's not only about 'loving yourself no matter the size'. There's a point that things like getting extension belt in plane, or squizzing in sits, wanting to do more but just everything hurts or your energy for the day runs out halfday.. It gets infiurating or embarrassing or just plainly depressing... *venting done*
My mum wants to help me with initial post surgery period, so since I'm already here till about April, I think it's a sign? And here also comes an ask for help? Surgery costs around 5000£ [hoping to reduce the costs with medical insurance to about 2000£], I will be changing my Ko-Fi page goal to surgery. If any of you can/want to help me with it here's my ko-fi https://ko-fi.com/sajophoe.
Also, my family home is well complicated. My sis is Autistic and she barerly does any type of homework [she is 18 but they recently were writing words starting with specific letters A,B, C... ] sooo there's no actual desk to use for work. I'm still figuring out where to set myself up to be able to draw for hours with no interuptions [can't draw nsfw stuff when my sis is home, well maybe when she sleeps] and massive backpains. But I think I'm catching up with commissions, I want to get back to the 1 commission per day rythm and restart livestreams. Goal is to have it done by the latest of end of first week of December.
Last year I was travelling and moving December/January. This year I want to do some Xmas commissions ^^
P.S I apologize for my shitty grammar. Even if I read quite a lot of books in english ... My mind is too chaotic, my writing in polish is messy as well... So yeah.
P.S. 2 I will be doing Free requests journal sometime next week ^^ [either Halfbody or Fullbody sketch]
Therefore I'm using the few months time I'm stuck in Poland to do few things... Like getting driving license [being 30 and not being able to drive a car is kinda hmmm inconvienient and most of all in this day and age it's a basic skill that all should have ^^'" ].
I applied to business course/contest organised by US Embassy in Poland, I'm hoping it will give me push to open merch shop. I'm to indecisive and want to do too much at the same time... ;x Though, I know for sure I will want to make custom art dolls/plushies. Something like a BJD dolls of Fursonas, but made mostly from fur fabrics and instead of joints having a wired based for posable limbs. And I will want to make merch from eco fabrics, recycled ones and alternatives to real leather.
On top of all that as soon as I manage to figure out medical insurance I will be going for bariartic surgery. For last few years I was mostly stuck home and went out less and less and yeah now is time I HAVE to change that and work on myself [having PCOS and insulin resistence is not helping]. As person who used to do sports [basketball, teakwon do, archery] I feel horrible that stupid short walk out tires me out >> *vent alert* My husband didn't want to take me to visit his family since I was too fat for it.... Few years later I gained more weight and I started to get idea in my head to be too embarrassed to visit my own family [I didn't for about 4 years+]. Anyone who been plus size or have a closed ones that are knows that it's not only about 'loving yourself no matter the size'. There's a point that things like getting extension belt in plane, or squizzing in sits, wanting to do more but just everything hurts or your energy for the day runs out halfday.. It gets infiurating or embarrassing or just plainly depressing... *venting done*
My mum wants to help me with initial post surgery period, so since I'm already here till about April, I think it's a sign? And here also comes an ask for help? Surgery costs around 5000£ [hoping to reduce the costs with medical insurance to about 2000£], I will be changing my Ko-Fi page goal to surgery. If any of you can/want to help me with it here's my ko-fi https://ko-fi.com/sajophoe.
Also, my family home is well complicated. My sis is Autistic and she barerly does any type of homework [she is 18 but they recently were writing words starting with specific letters A,B, C... ] sooo there's no actual desk to use for work. I'm still figuring out where to set myself up to be able to draw for hours with no interuptions [can't draw nsfw stuff when my sis is home, well maybe when she sleeps] and massive backpains. But I think I'm catching up with commissions, I want to get back to the 1 commission per day rythm and restart livestreams. Goal is to have it done by the latest of end of first week of December.
Last year I was travelling and moving December/January. This year I want to do some Xmas commissions ^^
P.S I apologize for my shitty grammar. Even if I read quite a lot of books in english ... My mind is too chaotic, my writing in polish is messy as well... So yeah.
P.S. 2 I will be doing Free requests journal sometime next week ^^ [either Halfbody or Fullbody sketch]
Take it easy, one thing at a time and focus :)
As far as family stuff goes, I understand how difficult it can be. Hopefully things do improve with time and you're able to find a good solution to having a work area and comms.
Hopefully the surgery helps, saving that kinda money seems daunting, but if you stick with it you'll reach thay amount.
I hope to get another comm from you in the near future! Best wishes 💙 and happy holidays!
One step at a time right? Though it sometimes looks like we do 1 step forward and 2 steps back...
Yeah we all have stuff going with families, it can be something small or big, but there's always something. I personally have low expentancy towards it ~~
Well my mum keeps telling how many ppl she know off who went through it and it helped them, same with one of my friends. They both kept convincing me until I agreed. I'm bit scared of it and a bit hopeful. I thought I will be able to do it without an aid from surgery. But I'm getting demotivated by how little I can actually do now. I fairly familiar with gym and all the machines and what type of excersises are good for which muscles and all that stuff. But I'm like at point where just getting to gym is a warm up itself ;x So I'm stuck in stupid cycle, and hoping surgery will give me a way to get out of it.
I will be happy to draw your feline once more ^^ You might catch the free request journal soon ;3
Thank you ^^ And happy holidays to you to. ;d
Look forward to it! Much love 💙💙💙
I'm kinda convinced I will be bad at driving so yeah, luck will be needed. Family issues , we all have them and I think they never really end. ~~