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Ever been ghosted?
2 years ago
*loud kobold noises over the communications devices!*
Wheee.
Emotional brainless writing at 5am, mayhaps I shouldn't be up so late and thats why I feel this way.
Anywho ~ Been around... 6-8 years so far? Not sure why my brain wants to keep hanging onto this.
Guess I feel like venting, Not sure what to do with all this bottled emotions that I keep buried, anywho... It's why I've been fucking MANIC for the past few years... I can't stop thinking about it.
It's going to drive me up a fucking wall... I haven't found my boyfriend in... that long soooo Guess It's just me? I dunno... Kinda sucks when you're removed from their friends list and forgotten... Then Blocked.
No actual reasons.. No confirmation...
Still hurts thinking about it when you actually loved someone ~ Which is hard for me to do, since I rarely love anyone. e.e I love my friends but thats a different kind of thing.
Maybe I'm just not Emotionally Mature or something... Maybe this is just a psychotic break? Who knows, I'm just all over the place and cant think or concentrate on anything, I cant Fucking motivate myself because The one who motivated me, who kept my brain all together, dropped me like a piece of fucking trash without a thought or a goodbye...
I won't say who, so... Yeah, just leave it there. I just fixate on things, and if its bothering me, IT will keep bothering me, until I die or something, with my health? Sure why not.
Blood clots, oh blood clots, i get too many of those. Have a Stent in my liver, take blood thinners... Get older... Can't walk very well.
This all happens after I've been ghosted too... sooo... yeah, Not saying its all connected... Or it's just in my head, but... A broken heart is a broken heart.
Emotional brainless writing at 5am, mayhaps I shouldn't be up so late and thats why I feel this way.
Anywho ~ Been around... 6-8 years so far? Not sure why my brain wants to keep hanging onto this.
Guess I feel like venting, Not sure what to do with all this bottled emotions that I keep buried, anywho... It's why I've been fucking MANIC for the past few years... I can't stop thinking about it.
It's going to drive me up a fucking wall... I haven't found my boyfriend in... that long soooo Guess It's just me? I dunno... Kinda sucks when you're removed from their friends list and forgotten... Then Blocked.
No actual reasons.. No confirmation...
Still hurts thinking about it when you actually loved someone ~ Which is hard for me to do, since I rarely love anyone. e.e I love my friends but thats a different kind of thing.
Maybe I'm just not Emotionally Mature or something... Maybe this is just a psychotic break? Who knows, I'm just all over the place and cant think or concentrate on anything, I cant Fucking motivate myself because The one who motivated me, who kept my brain all together, dropped me like a piece of fucking trash without a thought or a goodbye...
I won't say who, so... Yeah, just leave it there. I just fixate on things, and if its bothering me, IT will keep bothering me, until I die or something, with my health? Sure why not.
Blood clots, oh blood clots, i get too many of those. Have a Stent in my liver, take blood thinners... Get older... Can't walk very well.
This all happens after I've been ghosted too... sooo... yeah, Not saying its all connected... Or it's just in my head, but... A broken heart is a broken heart.
Can't let that shit get to you.
Dominus tecum