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Switching to a new OC soon
2 years ago
In the next week or so, I'll be posting some art of a new OC that I have made. There are some reasons I wanted to switch OCs, I'll explain more below. I just wanted to get the tl;dr out of the way here first.
The tl;dr is that I'm going to try her out for a bit bc reasons. She might last, she might not. I'm just collecting some art of her before I fully switch and post her anywhere really public. Basically I was masking some mental issues forever and having starting to unmask, I'm kinda refiguring myself out.
Here is some reasoning/backstory if you care;
Backstory:
I've been dealing with gender dysphoria basically as long as I could really know. My family upbringing made even asking for mental health help to be kinda taboo. When I became an adult I did briefly attempt transition only to very quickly find out that without substantial financial burden and a really good support network, it was not happening. Keep in mind this was around 14-15 years ago in the Midwest of the USA. These kinda things were not as well cared for as they maybe now. I kinda put it on the back burner for a while, but still had a small bit of hope. Eventually the hope ran out. When I finally gave up was when I decided that I needed to stop pretending by using Mady and I made Donnykatt
All was fine for a while until Donny started getting drawn turned into a girl and then I made more and more girl OCs. So the desire clearly never went away, I just masked it.
Last year around Halloween, a close friend xizana, convinced me to let her draw Mady and maybe use her for a little bit. It's been fun and kinda eye opening. I even did a couple IRL excursions under the guise of Mady. But the last few months I've been feeling a bit of dread.
Reason for new OC:
-Mady is far to sexy for me to ever be anything like. I'm far to large of a man, even if i did try to move on with transition, I'd be nothing like her. Not saying I couldnt do it. I just couldn't do Mady.
-Don't want to redesign Mady to fit. She was my original... it doesn't seem right
-Wanted a change. Some design that represents me a little more. Mady was just a "oh black cat, thats cute" and not really representative of me. This new OC is made with a type of fur pattern that kinda shows how "split" I am
-New OC is designed to be more "achievable" of a goal for me to look at if I were to try transitioning. Which is very very unlikely, but at least it's more realistic
The tl;dr is that I'm going to try her out for a bit bc reasons. She might last, she might not. I'm just collecting some art of her before I fully switch and post her anywhere really public. Basically I was masking some mental issues forever and having starting to unmask, I'm kinda refiguring myself out.
Here is some reasoning/backstory if you care;
Backstory:
I've been dealing with gender dysphoria basically as long as I could really know. My family upbringing made even asking for mental health help to be kinda taboo. When I became an adult I did briefly attempt transition only to very quickly find out that without substantial financial burden and a really good support network, it was not happening. Keep in mind this was around 14-15 years ago in the Midwest of the USA. These kinda things were not as well cared for as they maybe now. I kinda put it on the back burner for a while, but still had a small bit of hope. Eventually the hope ran out. When I finally gave up was when I decided that I needed to stop pretending by using Mady and I made Donnykatt
All was fine for a while until Donny started getting drawn turned into a girl and then I made more and more girl OCs. So the desire clearly never went away, I just masked it.
Last year around Halloween, a close friend xizana, convinced me to let her draw Mady and maybe use her for a little bit. It's been fun and kinda eye opening. I even did a couple IRL excursions under the guise of Mady. But the last few months I've been feeling a bit of dread.
Reason for new OC:
-Mady is far to sexy for me to ever be anything like. I'm far to large of a man, even if i did try to move on with transition, I'd be nothing like her. Not saying I couldnt do it. I just couldn't do Mady.
-Don't want to redesign Mady to fit. She was my original... it doesn't seem right
-Wanted a change. Some design that represents me a little more. Mady was just a "oh black cat, thats cute" and not really representative of me. This new OC is made with a type of fur pattern that kinda shows how "split" I am
-New OC is designed to be more "achievable" of a goal for me to look at if I were to try transitioning. Which is very very unlikely, but at least it's more realistic
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