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Self reflection
2 years ago
A bit of self reflection before it turns the new year. Note you don’t have to read this, it’s gonna be a jumble of grammar and spelling mistakes. I’m not the best writer.
This year a lot of good and a lot of bad happen. Well bad to me is the lack of art this year. As I grow and mainly my job is draining my motivation to draw these days. Unless it’s commissions and drawing for someone else, it’s kinda hard for me to motivate myself to draw. Sure I’ll doodle for myself but not to grand and I feel like I been lacking in my art as of late.
Sure I know most people will disagree with me in most regards. Yet, I feel like I still improve in many regards towards my art. It’s just I’m not 100 percent on where exactly to improve. I know that’s a lot of us out there and asking for what can be improved and getting an answer is tricky but I want to at least try myself a direction to go in. Cause if I’m told directly and more straightforward approach even if it sounds rude I would listen better. That’s just how I learn better personally. I just need to stop judging so hard on my own skills and such. Though in my mind I’m just trying to make each art piece to the best of my ability. Thought I feel like sometimes it’s not enough and I just have enough knowledge to achieve it or can’t remember until it’s too late. I know it’s not a wrong to ask for criticism but sometimes I feel like I ask for it too much for validation. Thought most times I’m just genuinely asking for it and such. I know I’m not prefect but I want to show I can do the best that I can do. I want to make others amazing ideas come to life.
Beyond and relating to that. I don’t have a high self confidence at all. I always doubt myself when it comes to things. Even when I speak which why I usually don’t most times. Also having adhd and work keeping me busy doesn’t help much at all. And the fact sometimes direct social interaction can be scary cause I’m afaird to screw up and such. Sorry to friends I don’t speak to often too I really want to but sometimes it’s very hard for me to do so. Even asking for something like art trades is hard. I know people can be picky about that and I totally understand that I am as well for good reason. Still main point it’s hard to go up and just talk to people I know without thinking we are bothering people. I know we all been there.
Anyways another reason why the art took longer than i would like cause of the recent work schedule being sorta forced into the night shift that really didn’t agree my adhd at all last month. Thankfully that’s been fixed and hopefully that I can fix my motivation to draw. As well as try to be more active around others if I can muster up the courage too.
I been really thankfully for all of you sticking around and liking my stuff you guys are awesome. I hope I can figure all this out
As for next year I’ll probably open coms after my birthday January 7th. If not sooner so stay tuned for that!
This year a lot of good and a lot of bad happen. Well bad to me is the lack of art this year. As I grow and mainly my job is draining my motivation to draw these days. Unless it’s commissions and drawing for someone else, it’s kinda hard for me to motivate myself to draw. Sure I’ll doodle for myself but not to grand and I feel like I been lacking in my art as of late.
Sure I know most people will disagree with me in most regards. Yet, I feel like I still improve in many regards towards my art. It’s just I’m not 100 percent on where exactly to improve. I know that’s a lot of us out there and asking for what can be improved and getting an answer is tricky but I want to at least try myself a direction to go in. Cause if I’m told directly and more straightforward approach even if it sounds rude I would listen better. That’s just how I learn better personally. I just need to stop judging so hard on my own skills and such. Though in my mind I’m just trying to make each art piece to the best of my ability. Thought I feel like sometimes it’s not enough and I just have enough knowledge to achieve it or can’t remember until it’s too late. I know it’s not a wrong to ask for criticism but sometimes I feel like I ask for it too much for validation. Thought most times I’m just genuinely asking for it and such. I know I’m not prefect but I want to show I can do the best that I can do. I want to make others amazing ideas come to life.
Beyond and relating to that. I don’t have a high self confidence at all. I always doubt myself when it comes to things. Even when I speak which why I usually don’t most times. Also having adhd and work keeping me busy doesn’t help much at all. And the fact sometimes direct social interaction can be scary cause I’m afaird to screw up and such. Sorry to friends I don’t speak to often too I really want to but sometimes it’s very hard for me to do so. Even asking for something like art trades is hard. I know people can be picky about that and I totally understand that I am as well for good reason. Still main point it’s hard to go up and just talk to people I know without thinking we are bothering people. I know we all been there.
Anyways another reason why the art took longer than i would like cause of the recent work schedule being sorta forced into the night shift that really didn’t agree my adhd at all last month. Thankfully that’s been fixed and hopefully that I can fix my motivation to draw. As well as try to be more active around others if I can muster up the courage too.
I been really thankfully for all of you sticking around and liking my stuff you guys are awesome. I hope I can figure all this out
As for next year I’ll probably open coms after my birthday January 7th. If not sooner so stay tuned for that!
I think you should work on perspective for background and to get more freedom toward viewing angles, and work on storytelling like doing two or three panel comics, to train yourself on expressions, movement, action.
I'm frustrating too, being limited by time and knowledge but the thing is to put that frustration in the good funnel. It helps us to see what can be improve, what can be corrected and what we have to learn and/or train. If it's doing anything else than that, ok but if it's hurting, demotivating, it's not the good focus. Easier said than done, I must admit. The other useful thing is to remember why you do that, what are the good things and what you really want when doing so. I think we want to do this good, better too, to challenge ourselves and to know that we can progress, but on a first place, for me, it's all about the inflating person :D telling this story, getting the feelings right and making it appreciable.
Don't push yourself to hard, go persp and narrative, look for the pleasure, always ;3