This message will be posted (in some form) to all my social media accounts.

I've decided to implement some changes.
I've spent years making art as my sole source of income to survive off of. To the point where it's taken a severe mental toll on me. What was once a fun way to express myself, and vent thoughts and ideas has now lost all of the joy. I've lost so much faith in my own creativity, that on the rare cases that I do have free time, I'm so burnt out I can't think strait.

With the limited mobility I have, 'normal' jobs are physically and mentally impossible.


The only thing I can do to survive is art.

And I'm exhausted.

I'm tired of constantly fighting an uphill battle just to keep my head above water.

I'm tired of never having a break, never being able to STOP pushing to try and get sales anywhere I can so I can eat this month.

I'm tired of wondering each month if I made enough sales to be paid.

I'm tired of struggling to make ANY sales simply because I am not a well known or popular artist.
I don't in any way want to be super popular - but no one buys from / notices 'nobodies'.

Mostly I'm tired of the one thing I had to help me calm down in stressful situations, to now BE the most stressful thing I have to deal with.

I'm tired of art becoming the thing I dread, second only to social media.

I have taken some time away from it, for my own mental well being, and I do not see that changing much any time soon.

I understand my decision WILL cause me some major issues immediately, but for my own sanity, I will be limiting how many commissions I take each month, and the amount of 'adoptables' I make as well.

I get the feeling that won't change much, if anything, aside from losing money.

Again, I spend most of my time fighting to get my work even noticed.


I made this decision, however, because I want my art to, once again, be something that I enjoy - not just something I physically DREAD doing.

I'm not joking when I say for the past year or so, thinking about any kind of art would physically make me feel like vomiting.

I have had no motivation to work on anything I had originally wanted to do and I've been stuck in a semi-permanent art block if I had the chance to do what I wanted.


I WANT to go back to working on the (couple) comic series I had ideas for.

I WANT to work on the lore / world for my ARPG (art role playing game) .

I WANT to start writing again, and doing -more- art for MYSELF.

I want what used to help me out so much before, to be the same relief again.


Nobody sees what I do as a 'real' job, anyway, and I am SO tired of trying to defend myself. I'm tired of having to constantly explain to people that, yes, I sleep until about 1:00 / 2:00 in the afternoon - but that's with me WORKING at night from about 9:30/ 10:00 at night until about 3:00 am, and onward.

Most of the time I don't get into bed until around 4, and it takes half an hour to an hour to relax enough to go to sleep.

Nevermind every time something wakes me up, it takes another 30 min to an hour to go back to sleep again. I'm lucky if I get around 3 solid hours of GOOD sleep a day.

I CANNOT keep going the way I am if there is any hope that I live to a reasonable age.

TL,DR:
I'm tired of being in a state of constant stress worrying about art no longer being something I enjoy, and instead losing all faith in it.

I will be taking fewer commissions (raising the prices to compensate) and doing fewer adoptables each month.

I will continue to be scarce on social media, as that ALSO causes mental stress.

I will, however, be putting more time in the art / work / things I enjoy.

Whether I post it or not is still kinda 'meh'.