It's hard especially when family is spread across the map. Thank goodness for the Christmas parties at work, and the volunteer group.

It's how the season has a way of magnifying things that point out my inadequacies.

I don't like getting gifts, I'm terrible at giving them, I don't give to the communities around me because they're all the kind of people that'd want to see me die, and working retail as a supervisor makes it all the more intense.

More like Jingle Hells

Wish I could be locked in solitary confinement for 48 hours.

Me too.

Sorry to remind you, in any case.

I dunno, Rudoji... I just saw this post and decided to google it (well, DuckDuckGo actually) and found that the suicide rate getting higher at around Christmas is actually a myth and suicide rates actually get higher in the Spring/Summer.

What is higher at this time of year is cardiac mortality...which is something I'm also concerned about considering my physical health...

Honestly wasn't trying to spread any misinformation. More saying that most likely, if I do end up dead, it'll be self-inflicted.

Feeling less like that now, but it's been background noise I've been having off and on for years.

::hugs:: I know that feel all too well...