Dear watchers, supporters and readers.
I am in a situation I am both, happy and sad.
I got fired from my apprenticeship on 1st December. No money, no career, no clear view for my future.
I am happy to have my family supporting me with an apartment and food.

But also it is heartbreaking to see a larg number of people following me, watching my posts, favouriting but not receiving money of it.
I started my fundraise for Christmas a few month ago. In conclusion all the money I made is already gone again.
I am sitting on the last few hundreds of Euros I have.
I am sitting on a table getting a bunch of gifts but I can not give anything back, because I do not know how I will earn any money the next month. When I will get support from the government and all that.

I am thankfull for anyone who commissioned me, spent money and support me. But I am not sure I will be able to do all this stuff, since I feel like it is not worth it.

And haggle down everything to a spare minimum is well, not the solution.

When I think about, if all my followers would give me a dollar, a single dollars I could save up money for 2 month.

So thank you for everything and I hope you have a happy New year.
I for myself will celebrate with friends and try to stay positive.