Well, I don't know what to do anymore, it seems like I can't be that person you wanted me to be, I just end up disappointing in the end, I keep losing friends because of something really stupid that I did, but I don't know how I'll apologize to them for this if I can't help myself. It's not enough that I have problems in real life, but I didn't think I would have them online, it seems like I was just deceived and manipulated trying to change my way of being, if this continues like this you'd better forget about me, because I will only cause problems in the future.
Unfortunately, I can't...change... I'm always doing bad decisions...

You can call me ridiculous, everything and everything, because I am, I'm just a boy who is deceived by the images he sees, he never sees reality. I don't even know what I say sometimes. Every time I remember these terrible moments it only brings me worry and stress, well, anyway. Don't try to contradict me because it won't help, it will only get worse.

I am very stubborn since my childhood...

Well, that's it, but I hope one day I can truly change...

*crying*