Hey so uhhhhhh

I think I’m back!


So long story short; I’ve been thinking things over for a few years now, almost agonizing about it really. There’s a few things I’ve come to terms with.

First is that I’ve been living with undiagnosed AuDHD for a whole 27 years of life, and I cannot tell you how much that has explained so many of my barriers to doing art! I spoke of a lack of motivation last time I was here, and wouldn’t you know I found that my drop in motivation coincided MOSTLY with me dialing back my caffeine intake. You know, a stimulant! Like they use to treat ADHD! I’m on proper medication now and I have finally found the productivity I had lost so many years ago. I almost feel young again, and I mean that to say that drawing finally feels good again.

Second is that I think that I’m actually okay with continuing to do NSFW art!

That is to say, I think I’m perfectly fine with it so long as I’m being commissioned to do it.

I don’t suddenly love drawing NSFW, but I will say that I have liked drawing ANYTHING better than literally any other activity I have ever done. I wouldn’t even say I hate it now that drawing doesn’t feel like a fight. Anything other than doing art feels like agony, and, well, I do still want to make a career out of it

I do feel scummy saying this, not because I think this work is beneath me but because I don’t like the idea of ONLY doing art for money. It won’t only be paid work, though! I’ve improved significantly and I have some older pieces I want to finish, some new ideas and characters I want to play with, and a comic series that explores some feelings I have about gender even? I’m not coming back demanding anyone commission me, I want to show you that my work will be worth your while first! I’m gunna start with giving the ol persona an updated design, one that comes with a new name!

I’m not ready to start posting again riiiiiiight yet; I actually have a few unrelated projects that are priority. I just want to throw something out there in the meantime. This chimera ain’t really dead!

I see a lot of people have watched me in the time I've been absent, thank you for your patience. I can't wait to meet you all! <3 In the meantime, be safe, have a good day, and if you're having trouble focusing on activities you love doing, please go see your local psychologist!