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😠part 2
2 years ago
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It's been a week since my last journal and while I thought I was getting better, turns out I was wrong.
My last week has been a roller coaster, with ups and downs, highs and lows. While I have been trying to keep myself busy, which has kept my mind from thinking about my friend stepping away, it's also a disadvantage for me as I miss seeing messages from them in-between my breaks when I'd check my IM(s).
It's the lil things like that which I miss. We'd tease each other and have playful banters, whether it'd be about a furry tweet we'd share with each other or about art that either them or I would submit on FA. We'd bounce ideas off of one another too, asking each other what we'd think of this and that, or saying that this is something we could commission and they'd give me permission to get art with our OCs. And they were cool about it, even going as far as joking about it and saying I should commission more of it or calling me NAUGHTY, which I was, honestly. They knew how to push my proverbial buttons as we even showed interest in each other's OCs and had similar tastes for what we like in furry art.
But it wasn't just furry that we'd talk about only. We'd also talk about things other than furry arts like current movies (especially the "furry" ones, the last one being PUSS IN BOOTS: THE LAST WISH), cultural differences and language, foods, family, video games, and I could tell them anything and they wouldn't judge me.
To quote Forrest Gump, they were my best good friend, and even I know that ain't something you can find just around the corner.
At this point, I'm just going through the motions, day by day, and it has made me ask myself some questions:
1) Will I myself step away too?
2) Will I continue to commission and/or submit art?
3) What's the future for my characters?
I know for those who have been watching my FA for a long time, and by extension those who may have just started, this is something you may not want to hear. But honestly, at this point, I dunno why I am here. I thought I did but now, like I said, I'm just going through the motions.
However, I do want to thank everyone who has reached out to me and checked up on me. Thanks for just being a listening ear and encouraging me.
My last week has been a roller coaster, with ups and downs, highs and lows. While I have been trying to keep myself busy, which has kept my mind from thinking about my friend stepping away, it's also a disadvantage for me as I miss seeing messages from them in-between my breaks when I'd check my IM(s).
It's the lil things like that which I miss. We'd tease each other and have playful banters, whether it'd be about a furry tweet we'd share with each other or about art that either them or I would submit on FA. We'd bounce ideas off of one another too, asking each other what we'd think of this and that, or saying that this is something we could commission and they'd give me permission to get art with our OCs. And they were cool about it, even going as far as joking about it and saying I should commission more of it or calling me NAUGHTY, which I was, honestly. They knew how to push my proverbial buttons as we even showed interest in each other's OCs and had similar tastes for what we like in furry art.
But it wasn't just furry that we'd talk about only. We'd also talk about things other than furry arts like current movies (especially the "furry" ones, the last one being PUSS IN BOOTS: THE LAST WISH), cultural differences and language, foods, family, video games, and I could tell them anything and they wouldn't judge me.
To quote Forrest Gump, they were my best good friend, and even I know that ain't something you can find just around the corner.
At this point, I'm just going through the motions, day by day, and it has made me ask myself some questions:
1) Will I myself step away too?
2) Will I continue to commission and/or submit art?
3) What's the future for my characters?
I know for those who have been watching my FA for a long time, and by extension those who may have just started, this is something you may not want to hear. But honestly, at this point, I dunno why I am here. I thought I did but now, like I said, I'm just going through the motions.
However, I do want to thank everyone who has reached out to me and checked up on me. Thanks for just being a listening ear and encouraging me.
What I can only suggest now is, staying in the fight. Sure it isn't great to lose a friend that has similar interests, but if these interests are still things that you like, stick with them. The best thing you can do is be resilient and yes, the pain of this friend leaving you will still be there but staying strong through it all will reap its rewards, no matter how the world come crumbling down around us. You have many other people that are interested in the not only the same subjects but to know you as a person and possibly, a friend. It will never be the same as the friend that left sadly, but rest assured, you are supported.