Hello, everyone! So, it has certainly been a long while since I did a journal. I admit I have not been very vocal, I'm not a very social person online. Plus, I am scared of what people will think of me, if they do get to know me. But the main thing on why I haven't been very social, is because after my journal telling about my (at the time) upcoming trip to Canada, I had a little sad period, but that is in the past now.

So, I want to now make a list of things that I am going to be doing this year. Because I am tired of feeling like a failure, for not being able to live independently. And the main reason for that, is because I am a reckless spender, like I do not think about my spending habits, I just SPEND, SPEND, SPEND, and not even think about saving up to finally move out. x.x Well, last year, I started chatting with someone, and I have been sending them money to help them out. Well, my parents noticed that I was dumping money out of my bank account, and I did not want to listen to them. Well, it all finally came to bite me in the "padded" butt. I got an overdraft, and I was SOOOO scared. Like, I thought I was literally gonna go to jail for that! D: But thankfully, my paycheck managed to come through and get me out of it. I was terrified, and that set off a chain of events in my mind. I think that was the point, where reality decided to b*tch slap me and say, "This is why, you are stuck here! You cannot control your spending, so you cannot move out! When are you gonna start learning to be more responsible?" And I immediately began to just work and not spend any money, just to get my bank account back up. I didn't want my parents to find out, but I had to because I didn't know what an overdraft was. Needless to say, they were furious. I've had about six months to think about this, and I want to change that. So, this year, I am going to finally get my bank account back up to where I was before this all went down, and then work on moving out. I'm also gonna look into finding other jobs, that pay more.

On another note, I am thinking about finally going to get professionally diagnosed for my Autism, see where I land on the spectrum. Because, I want to know, what is it, and do I meet the criteria. Someone did say, I might have PDD (Pervasive Development Disorder). I want to know for sure, because I want to finally figure out what's wrong with me. Why do I stutter, when I get frustrated? Why did it start when I was a three-years old? So yeah, I want to get this checked out, so I can finally learn to accept it, and hopefully myself in the process. Only when I do that, will I be able to move forward in life. It's a part of me, but I won't let it define me, because that is not my entire identity. That is what I like to call, a footnote in my book.

On the plus side, one thing that I am definitely planning on, is going to go see my babyfur bro who I have known ever since I showed up here,  babysilverwolf24 Hopefully, that will happen in October or November, for a con around that time. I want to finally see him IRL, so I can say that I've met everyone I've been friends with online. Also, I am planning on a trip to Japan next year. It's on my bucket list, and I will make it happen. I just need to learn Japanese in order to get around Tokyo. Because, I wanted to go to Osaka and Hiroshima, but if I don't speak the language, that's not gonna be possible. ^^;

To make a long story short, I am making some serious changes in my life, starting now. I just hope and pray, that the Lord God Almighty, can help me along this journey. Thank you all for listening, I hope I didn't bore you, and I will hopefully see you all in the near future. Bye for now, and have a blessed day!