I've demonstrated multiple times over that I'm a horrible friend. It's due to my depression, but also due to the fact I was born broken. Does that make it my fault? Of course it does, because despite the fact they aren't things I can control, they are still things I cause.

I know you will see this. You know who you are. I'm upset at you because you just kick me and my issues down the road every time they're so much as suggested. "Time will fix it" is not something which is true. Time will not fix me. I am broken the way I am, I have been broken my whole life. I get you want to avoid situations that may be uncomfortable to you, but that means me. I am an uncomfortable situation. So whenever you use that excuse of "give it some time" and choose to ignore it, but then say things like "I'm here for you" well, yeah it kind of makes me upset. So good job.

I wasn't born with happiness in my future. You have no idea how I live. The terrible situation I call my everyday. So to see you just casually enjoying your life, and to treat me like I'm in your same position, it just breaks me even further. I do not have friends, I cannot play games, I can't talk casually. If you really still want to be friends with me, drop your mask and confront the issues that are me head on, instead of trying to turn away until I wear myself out flailing into the darkness.

Or don't, and perpetuate the cycle. Whatever you want I guess.