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2 years ago
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Hello everyone, im Max, better known as TurlessFX
Im here to explain a lot of things, and the reasons why im slow on uploading stuff or even making it.
2 years ago, we got as a familly a terrible new that my aunt (which since i got awareness or consciousness she´s been there all my life) got cancer.
We started inmediately the treatments for it, and when the first surgery came on her Liver, they couldn´t get all of it off.. We keep the hope that with the chemotherapy the small remaining cells will be burn down..... Thats where our hopes.
The 2nd tumor she had on her colon was getting slowly bigger and after recovering from the first surgery, came the 2nd.
Things went great.......until the last day so she could leave...... That night she went south in no time and her situtation got worst, so she spent all the month in there trying to recover, and belive me.......It wasn´t good....
When things were close to be over, 1 day before she had to leave, we got a terrible new that the cancer spreaded to her lungs...... And that was the moment we lost the fight against the cancer.
She´s still alive after all this time...... but by just looking at her rn, it breaks my heart and soul.
I already lost a person by cancer, and sadly like it or not, i´ll have a 2nd one.
So im spending time with her as much as i can, and im not in a good position to even get the fcking pen and draw some shit that nobody will even look at it.
If it wasn´t enough, i had problems with the university, oh and look at that, i got depression.....
rn im with a counselor trying not to lose my mind, i slowly been losing my will to draw again.
i mean, lets be honest, my art is shit, nobody watchs it, i´ve been uploading shit for 8 years, even in my worst days, i was still trying, i got better, but nothing, at this point i already think that then only thing i was decent enough, now AI show´s up.
Im so frustrated that no matter, how much effort and passion i put on every single picture, it means nothing, unless is fcking cheap porn.
Im not the greatest artits in the world, i know that, im decent enough to call myself at least an amateur one, im not expecting being "famous" or "much known", i dont care about that, what i care i have tried everything and yet, nothing have worked for me.
I don´t know what´s going to happen in the future, but rn i can already tell that people is using this shit to sell comms faking them they "draw" them.
So yeah, i think is over for me, im done.
Genuinely im done, i spent 8 years studying art, i have become an artist that i never thought i could be, and yet......Nothing.
So yeah.........
Im tired, Mentally, physically, and spiritually.
I don´t know if im going to keep drawing, my happiness was over long time ago.
Im here to explain a lot of things, and the reasons why im slow on uploading stuff or even making it.
2 years ago, we got as a familly a terrible new that my aunt (which since i got awareness or consciousness she´s been there all my life) got cancer.
We started inmediately the treatments for it, and when the first surgery came on her Liver, they couldn´t get all of it off.. We keep the hope that with the chemotherapy the small remaining cells will be burn down..... Thats where our hopes.
The 2nd tumor she had on her colon was getting slowly bigger and after recovering from the first surgery, came the 2nd.
Things went great.......until the last day so she could leave...... That night she went south in no time and her situtation got worst, so she spent all the month in there trying to recover, and belive me.......It wasn´t good....
When things were close to be over, 1 day before she had to leave, we got a terrible new that the cancer spreaded to her lungs...... And that was the moment we lost the fight against the cancer.
She´s still alive after all this time...... but by just looking at her rn, it breaks my heart and soul.
I already lost a person by cancer, and sadly like it or not, i´ll have a 2nd one.
So im spending time with her as much as i can, and im not in a good position to even get the fcking pen and draw some shit that nobody will even look at it.
If it wasn´t enough, i had problems with the university, oh and look at that, i got depression.....
rn im with a counselor trying not to lose my mind, i slowly been losing my will to draw again.
i mean, lets be honest, my art is shit, nobody watchs it, i´ve been uploading shit for 8 years, even in my worst days, i was still trying, i got better, but nothing, at this point i already think that then only thing i was decent enough, now AI show´s up.
Im so frustrated that no matter, how much effort and passion i put on every single picture, it means nothing, unless is fcking cheap porn.
Im not the greatest artits in the world, i know that, im decent enough to call myself at least an amateur one, im not expecting being "famous" or "much known", i dont care about that, what i care i have tried everything and yet, nothing have worked for me.
I don´t know what´s going to happen in the future, but rn i can already tell that people is using this shit to sell comms faking them they "draw" them.
So yeah, i think is over for me, im done.
Genuinely im done, i spent 8 years studying art, i have become an artist that i never thought i could be, and yet......Nothing.
So yeah.........
Im tired, Mentally, physically, and spiritually.
I don´t know if im going to keep drawing, my happiness was over long time ago.
I will say I’ve always looked at your art and had a good healthy dose of inspiration, you’re a fantastic artist and truly it’s really underrated. Been wanting to comm ya for a while but it’s understandable why you haven’t been able to do such. And don’t you worry about the AI bs, we’re all fighting through it. Even I.
It’s sad to see another great artist go, but if you wanna make that decision I can’t stop you. I know the stuff you’re dealing with is rough and there’s no changing that, but it will get easier.
Y no, tu arte no es una mierda :(
Cheer up! you are a great artist and a great person and you will overcome this ordeal. ❤
I'll say this, AI is not impressive in the slightest to me, I see it only cannibalizing itself.
I understand after all that time what you mean, things are rough right now and best we can do is make it through. even if you don't come back I hope that things will get better and you can find a better place without all this stress and worrying, this hasn't done me any favors either, you're a cool dude man, stay safe and take care of yourself, wishing you only the best.