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Scat can wait, but passion can't | Branching out but stay...
2 years ago
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Well, hey ya'll!
I'm not usually writing journals here so excuse the crappy formatting. I'll save the story by compressing it into a nutshell. If there was any anyways lol
The short version:
I'm putting Blender Scat Animation Content on hold for a while, but my presence stays and I'll still get scat commissions, and OCCASIONALLY do something scat related in Blender.
However, to achieve my greatest goals, I need to loosen my hyperfocus from scat and porn creation, and dig myself into the actual depths of professional art creation in 3D.
The reason? I wish to be a game developer. And my biggest goals are to make a game, and to make a LEWD game. The drive is there, but all that is missing is TONS AND TONS of practice. I must prioritize.
Even if I'm putting Blender shitting stuff on hold, I'll still be spending money on commissions, so I won't stop posting. I'll keep representing my niche. Once I achieve my goal, the lewd game will be done anyways, which'll once again plant my flag back into the niche.
The long version, somewhat:
I joined FA in the hopes of finding this strange, non-existant middle ground between completely implied shitting and hardcore scat. But the art which represented it was so scarce, so rare, that I haven't found satisfaction to my needs and desires. The marker never fell in the exact middle of the two, and the represented content almost never featured male characters. I pretty much had enough, and hit up as a content creator.
With
lalzimsooodrunkrightnow being my idol, and also my respectful gateway to this fandom, AND whom I owe a LOT after all this time, I started with stories at first. Once I felt like I wanted an upgrade, I got some help from a few friends, and hit up SFM. Then, once my magnum opus was done, I felt that I hit the ceiling of SFM, and hit up Blender. Yaddie yaddie yadda.
For all this time though all I wanted is to supply a steady stream of REALLY niche scat art, which while also containing elements of the actual scat fetish, like visual representation of the poop itself, it also focused a lot on not just the sexual aspect of the whole ordeal, but the intimate, character-related side of it. I wanted to hit authenticity in a way noone else did before, focusing on realism in most of my works from different directions. Environments, character interactions, the before and aftermaths of the dump, dialogues or the lacks of them, and integrating these into longer stories, not just pictures in a vacuum.
While I could not achieve my biggest and most grandiose goal so far, which is to make a long-running comic that is only semi-sexual, but focuses on the scat fetish, I have managed to find my medium in the 3D space, and I feel like I can get more done here. Sure, the comic won't be made unless I find a talented, likeminded artist who is willing to commit to such gigantic task, but I feel like I can achieve something quite close.
I have been feeling that I have been concentrating on lewd and horny shit too much since I hit up Blender. It's a really good motivator, horny I mean, but it limits what you can actually make to a small amount. Sure, I can make an outhouse, but I can't really put together a good looking room! (Okay, I can, bad example, but you get the point.) With animations and simulations taking up a LOT of my limited creative time - controlled by the 8 hour focus window my meds give me, AND my day job (and sometimes night job, long story), I couldn't improve that much in 4 years. This will stop now though.
From today, WITH Today I mean, the lewd content (well, just the scat animation part), is put on hold! Scary! But that doesn't mean too much in the grand scheme of things. I will be focusing, in Blender, on asset and character creation. The latter will turn into commissions as well, which means you'll be able to get a 3D character of your sona from me too. This is what I need to perfect, then following it up with animation, and then... I hit up Unreal 5. Gamedev will be my final stage, and I'll do my absolute best to achieve the second dream. Oh, but I'll still get porn comms. Some lovely artists out here I could get some sexy pieces from. Don't unwatch me!! >:(
Story over lol
If you are still reading this, then you don't have ADHD, probably. I'm still part of the fandom, and still will interact and do stuff! Just... the scat stuff gets a lot more rare from my blender production. Stay tuned for this year though! I keep on improving nonstop. I'm never giving up.
And keep the niche alive. Male + Furry + Softcore scat is underrepresented, and it has to be kept strong. So make your stuff! Keep being authentic. Try to focus on how it would play out in real life. Don't sleep on tiny details. Always keep going.
Rise strong whatever whatever catchprhase woohoo
I'm not usually writing journals here so excuse the crappy formatting. I'll save the story by compressing it into a nutshell. If there was any anyways lol
The short version:
I'm putting Blender Scat Animation Content on hold for a while, but my presence stays and I'll still get scat commissions, and OCCASIONALLY do something scat related in Blender.
However, to achieve my greatest goals, I need to loosen my hyperfocus from scat and porn creation, and dig myself into the actual depths of professional art creation in 3D.
The reason? I wish to be a game developer. And my biggest goals are to make a game, and to make a LEWD game. The drive is there, but all that is missing is TONS AND TONS of practice. I must prioritize.
Even if I'm putting Blender shitting stuff on hold, I'll still be spending money on commissions, so I won't stop posting. I'll keep representing my niche. Once I achieve my goal, the lewd game will be done anyways, which'll once again plant my flag back into the niche.
The long version, somewhat:
I joined FA in the hopes of finding this strange, non-existant middle ground between completely implied shitting and hardcore scat. But the art which represented it was so scarce, so rare, that I haven't found satisfaction to my needs and desires. The marker never fell in the exact middle of the two, and the represented content almost never featured male characters. I pretty much had enough, and hit up as a content creator.
With
lalzimsooodrunkrightnow being my idol, and also my respectful gateway to this fandom, AND whom I owe a LOT after all this time, I started with stories at first. Once I felt like I wanted an upgrade, I got some help from a few friends, and hit up SFM. Then, once my magnum opus was done, I felt that I hit the ceiling of SFM, and hit up Blender. Yaddie yaddie yadda.For all this time though all I wanted is to supply a steady stream of REALLY niche scat art, which while also containing elements of the actual scat fetish, like visual representation of the poop itself, it also focused a lot on not just the sexual aspect of the whole ordeal, but the intimate, character-related side of it. I wanted to hit authenticity in a way noone else did before, focusing on realism in most of my works from different directions. Environments, character interactions, the before and aftermaths of the dump, dialogues or the lacks of them, and integrating these into longer stories, not just pictures in a vacuum.
While I could not achieve my biggest and most grandiose goal so far, which is to make a long-running comic that is only semi-sexual, but focuses on the scat fetish, I have managed to find my medium in the 3D space, and I feel like I can get more done here. Sure, the comic won't be made unless I find a talented, likeminded artist who is willing to commit to such gigantic task, but I feel like I can achieve something quite close.
I have been feeling that I have been concentrating on lewd and horny shit too much since I hit up Blender. It's a really good motivator, horny I mean, but it limits what you can actually make to a small amount. Sure, I can make an outhouse, but I can't really put together a good looking room! (Okay, I can, bad example, but you get the point.) With animations and simulations taking up a LOT of my limited creative time - controlled by the 8 hour focus window my meds give me, AND my day job (and sometimes night job, long story), I couldn't improve that much in 4 years. This will stop now though.
From today, WITH Today I mean, the lewd content (well, just the scat animation part), is put on hold! Scary! But that doesn't mean too much in the grand scheme of things. I will be focusing, in Blender, on asset and character creation. The latter will turn into commissions as well, which means you'll be able to get a 3D character of your sona from me too. This is what I need to perfect, then following it up with animation, and then... I hit up Unreal 5. Gamedev will be my final stage, and I'll do my absolute best to achieve the second dream. Oh, but I'll still get porn comms. Some lovely artists out here I could get some sexy pieces from. Don't unwatch me!! >:(
Story over lol
If you are still reading this, then you don't have ADHD, probably. I'm still part of the fandom, and still will interact and do stuff! Just... the scat stuff gets a lot more rare from my blender production. Stay tuned for this year though! I keep on improving nonstop. I'm never giving up.
And keep the niche alive. Male + Furry + Softcore scat is underrepresented, and it has to be kept strong. So make your stuff! Keep being authentic. Try to focus on how it would play out in real life. Don't sleep on tiny details. Always keep going.
Rise strong whatever whatever catchprhase woohoo
Best wishes from my side on your quest and you wont get this Foxxo here away so fast! Ya always get my support buddy
My first creation, Dragusz, took about 4 months since he had two versions, three even if we count the update, so I can see that happening. As for animation commissions... who knows, if I ever come back to the Blender medium after I'm done with my "journey", it can still happen! Animation practice is also included in this grind I'm about to start so hey.