Hello! I hope you are all doing well today/tonight. It’s been 2+ years since I last made a FA journal. There are numerous reasons for this, I tend to keep to myself and sharing my thoughts to a wide audience kind of makes me uncomfortable. But I’ve been keeping silent for long enough and I feel like you guys deserve to know a little about what’s been going on.

3+ years ago, I was living with people that didn’t approve of me drawing, and kind of forced me into a retail job. Basically if I wanted to live with them, I’d have to work at this retail job that I really didn't enjoy. On the day I moved out, I basically committed to being a full-time artist. And it’s been a bit rocky for such a harsh contrast. I’ve been supporting myself via art commissions for the past 3+ years, yet I’ve been doing a poor job of it. For a variety of reasons, lingering trauma, bad habits and unhealthy lifestyle choices.

Still, I’m very happy with my current position in life, it’s just so nice to have freedom and privacy via living on my own that I’ve gotten a bit complacent. Apathy and laziness are my major vices, and I feel like I’m operating nowhere near my peak-performance. I’ve been able to pay for rent and utilities, but not much else. I want that to change, however. I want to have a healthier lifestyle and produce higher quality art at a quicker rate.

As of the past 3+ years I’ve been able to make a living mostly from friends, acquaintances, and just random people asking if I’m open for comms. And I’ve been drawing everyday, but I still have a lot of backlog. A lot of people have been waiting on those drawings, and I apologize for that. I don’t want to make people wait on my art, I want to get it to them in a timely manner.

My current goal is to finish my commission backlog, which I’m hoping to be able to do soon. After that? I want to amass more of a stockpile of funds, so I’ll probably be doing some YCHs. I may even post a commission sheet, but I’m hesitant about the sheet because I don’t want to be flooded with comms and have an entirely new backlog to deal with…

As for long-term goals, I want to get into animation. Lengthy lewd animations, with sound and maybe some interactive features even. (maybe even lewd games?) This has been my goal for a very long time, and I find the idea of learning an animation program very intimidating. So I haven’t acted on that yet unfortunately. However I’m hoping with a cleared backlog, and more funds in the bank, I’ll have the confidence I need to properly tackle that.

And with regularly doing animations, I’ll have the confidence to open up a patreon or subscribestar or something of the sort. I have none right now because I feel my art isn’t quite worthy enough for that. Even having a passive income from subscribestar would vastly improve my living situation.

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In conclusion, I am still making artwork regularly, yet I have a lot of issues with my lifestyle. Issues I am working towards fixing, mainly my long commission backlog. I have lost and gained a lot of friends in the years I’ve been making art. And I genuinely enjoy the career I’ve chosen.

But yes, thank you all so much for your support so far, and I hope you continue to support me. I’ll be posting more artworks as usual, and hopefully some animations in the future! And for those of you waiting on a commission: thank you for your patience so far, it shouldn’t be long now!