Im going to try to open up commissions again soon because economy. No i'm not ok. A lot of things are not ok. Half ya'll out there are probably not ok either. I know that's all pretty vague and confusing which is pretty typical of me, so let me try to explain that a little better..

so Ive been mostly absent for the past 7-ish years, popping in occasionally for a few scarce events. Ive been just working in retail, seeking help and basically not getting a lot of that besides pills. That was all probably self perpetuating because retail is torture, american healthcare is a joke and california wants all your money. The only good thing that came from that was a stable income, which is pretty much why i stopped taking commissions.

I recently moved because rent in silicon valley is unironically too damn high, and family was a little too much to live with considering they persistently believed psychosis isn't real and just had to be cured by prayer. I now live with a peer, and it's been a relief to not be constantly judged.. but the timing was pretty bad. I was hoping to just get a job where I am now, but recession is getting tougher, it's just after the holidays, and so no one's hiring. I have a bit of money left for rent, but I only have enough for one more month. To top it all off, me and my friends have been planning to see each other at a far-away meetup, and that's coming soon.. at this rate it'd be financially irresponsible for me spend money on a plane ticket.. not to mention I wont have money for rent either way.

So now here's the plan; I'm still trying to apply to other places, but in the meantime I could buy a little more time by taking commissions again.. but im going to have to increase my rates, because it wasn't enough to cover minimum wage in the past and it certainly wouldn't cut it now. I'll try to have it all planned and ready by tomorrow, because that's when I plan on opening up commissions again; around 7pm pst.

there's other things I might try, but if all else fails, guess I'll die ¯\_(ツ)_/¯