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a year ago
As most of you know, I've moved out yet again for another year to a new place (landlords wanting their places to sell/their families moving in etc). This has been causing me an insane amount of anxiety and burn out because I haven't even been able to financially recover from last year move.
As a plus and thanks to all this I don't sleep or eat well, I can't even focus on my work or do daily basic tasks because I feel like im drowning in everything.
I'm really not doing ok, I know my work has been slower than usual and I'm really sorry to everyone that are patiently waiting me to complete commissions.
Being totally honest I have no energy or will to keep on living when things never seem to ease down.
I'm exhausted, and I can't take on any more work because I have a queue + IRL things to finish and rent is yet again a couple weeks away to be paid.
I'm just... so tired, of everything. I'm sorry if I haven't been doing the best I can. I'm just really not alright. My crippling anxiety and depression are really taking the best of me and I can't seem to do anything about it.
I'll keep trying to do what I can in the meantime... I just thought it was fair for everyone to know whats going on with me as of lately.
Just thanks everyone for sticking around, I really appreciate it a lot.
As a plus and thanks to all this I don't sleep or eat well, I can't even focus on my work or do daily basic tasks because I feel like im drowning in everything.
I'm really not doing ok, I know my work has been slower than usual and I'm really sorry to everyone that are patiently waiting me to complete commissions.
Being totally honest I have no energy or will to keep on living when things never seem to ease down.
I'm exhausted, and I can't take on any more work because I have a queue + IRL things to finish and rent is yet again a couple weeks away to be paid.
I'm just... so tired, of everything. I'm sorry if I haven't been doing the best I can. I'm just really not alright. My crippling anxiety and depression are really taking the best of me and I can't seem to do anything about it.
I'll keep trying to do what I can in the meantime... I just thought it was fair for everyone to know whats going on with me as of lately.
Just thanks everyone for sticking around, I really appreciate it a lot.
If you're OUT of the anxiety-place, that SHOULD help, right? Give yourself some time to find some balance or equilibrium... get back on your feet. From what I've read, sounds like trying to force it is sorta counter-productive.
Is there any help you can get from friends, family, or even gov. support?
(Pain in the tail here... dunno what it's like there, sorry)
Take care of yourself for us, will ya?
Do something happy for me, please... even just a few minutes without stress... dancing, hiking, focusing on favorite song(s), whatever it takes.
I'm feeling better now, still burned out but have to keep trying, there's still artworks to complete and work to do
Thanks again for being so sweet! I hope you are having a lovely day and sorry for the late reply.
Need to make some smaller changes here and soon. Fortunately it'll likely be little more than just staying steady after stepping out of my comfort zone.