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I'm Turning 30 tomorrow
a year ago
I'll turn 30 tomorrow.
I was planning to do the usual funny "your 30s are coming! you're getting old hahaha" pic, but being honest, it's affecting me more than I was expecting. Not really because of the age, but kind of because of the lost time. I don't feel like a 30yr old man. I feel like a stupid kid who wasted his 20s and still doesn't know what to do with his life and what to do going forward. I'm tired, my body hurts all over, I can't say I'm good with money and I feel really sad and lonely. I'm grateful for every good thing that has happened to me until now, but I don't know, I expected more from my life at this point. I know it's a little selfish and arrogant, it sucks feeling that way, but it's the how I feel.
Even so, I wanted to take a moment to thank all of you for staying with and supporting me all this time. You guys really changed my life and will never be thankful enough or that. I'm sorry if I'm not as fast as other artists, or if my work is not as interesting or sexy as theirs. I can only promise that I'm trying and hoping to improve more from now on; just that, I'll try my best. I also want to tell you all: don't worry, I'll be fine, I recover quickly. But being honest, I might take a few days to reflect and calm down a little after this, I feel like I need to disconnect and be at peace with myself before I continue, I don't want to feel so stagnant anymore. Just a couple days, and then I'll go back to work, I hope you understand.
I was planning to do the usual funny "your 30s are coming! you're getting old hahaha" pic, but being honest, it's affecting me more than I was expecting. Not really because of the age, but kind of because of the lost time. I don't feel like a 30yr old man. I feel like a stupid kid who wasted his 20s and still doesn't know what to do with his life and what to do going forward. I'm tired, my body hurts all over, I can't say I'm good with money and I feel really sad and lonely. I'm grateful for every good thing that has happened to me until now, but I don't know, I expected more from my life at this point. I know it's a little selfish and arrogant, it sucks feeling that way, but it's the how I feel.
Even so, I wanted to take a moment to thank all of you for staying with and supporting me all this time. You guys really changed my life and will never be thankful enough or that. I'm sorry if I'm not as fast as other artists, or if my work is not as interesting or sexy as theirs. I can only promise that I'm trying and hoping to improve more from now on; just that, I'll try my best. I also want to tell you all: don't worry, I'll be fine, I recover quickly. But being honest, I might take a few days to reflect and calm down a little after this, I feel like I need to disconnect and be at peace with myself before I continue, I don't want to feel so stagnant anymore. Just a couple days, and then I'll go back to work, I hope you understand.
It's a huge thing, feeling like that big number looms on the horizon...but honestly, I think it's another door opening in life. It's like you've just gotten through the tutorial section of life and you're finally ready to start the real game. A lot of self-discovery goes into the first 29 years, some find it early and some find it later, but in the end it prepares us for when we need to officially walk into the world and nobody really sees us as kids anymore.
Stand up proud, man! You made it! ^_^ And the fact that you've established yourself as an artist despite all the competition out there, you've done a lot. That takes hard work and dedication. You should be really proud of yourself!
That being said, Happy Birthday! I wish you the best ^^
May your day be filled with family, friends & well wishes.
*Pounce tackle, hugs & nuzzles*
you live in a zoo
you look like a cutie and you smell like one too
About you considering taking a break to do a digital detox and taking a step back, go ahead! I think I speak for all of us when I say that we completely understand.
Im talking about the biglittlethings, you hugging your parents/significant other. Being thankful for all the friends who helped you through tough times, that time you cried of joy. When the cute doggo runs back to wagging it's tail after you threw a stick, when your cat strokes against your leg and telegraphing with their eyes that they love you.
I was an emotional wreck for a good 15 years of my life without realizing how it crippled my life, and what finally snapped me out of it was my best friend committing suicide.
These days I am aware of my irrational thought and fears and how to cope with them.
To stop judging myself and comparing my life to others.
If you Shade-the-Wolf, or anybody else for that matter, just want to bend my ear feel free to send me a DM, either here or on discord (#emperorzeyon)
Thanks for coming to my Ted-ex talk haha
In life, we often face disappointment when our plans don't work out as expected. We set goals, believing they'll happen, but they often change due to unexpected events. Many of us struggle to figure out what we want when things don't go as planned. It's normal to feel unsure about the future and feel like life is tough.
But remember, you're not alone in feeling lost. Instead of feeling down, try to see challenges as opportunities. Pursuing art, for example, is fantastic! If there's something else you're interested in, give it a try. Every failure helps you grow.
Think of setbacks as steps towards learning and success. Stay hopeful and open to new opportunities. Embrace your journey with courage, knowing each experience brings you closer to happiness.
By the way, welcome to the age of 30s! Enjoy it to the best of your abilities. It all depends on how you perceive things with your mind. Negative minds tend to make you flop in many things in life. Positive ones motivates you and gives you a sense of determination to do things in life. Easier said than done but practicing it makes it doable :)