I'm sorry..

What can we do to help?

BTW, if all your friends ever do is go on and on about depression and suicide, perhaps you should distance yourself from them. Not cut them out of your life completely, but spend less time listening to such things which will inevitably get you down as well. If you're able, look into getting a therapist who can help you sort things out.

Sigh-I guess I don't consider these people my true friends, though. I know over 400 people, and its only a few I can think about that make a point of "their suicidal tendencies". I have been actively working to improve my life, myself, my outlook-and I feel as though I have done a pretty good job. Its just....alarming...when I NEED help every few years, and I am treated like....I am crazy. I don't let the opinions or thoughts of these particular friends bother me so much-its that when I try to give them some advice I am met with, "well its easy for someone who...," That is whats heartbreaking. I simply cannot express myself or my emotions because I am FORTUNATE to be where I am at. In others eyes. So, I am not allowed to advise or express.

Oh, and therapy? The last few I tried made a point to ensure (for my first few appointments) that their other patients were more important due to a crisis. Okay, my partner just started fucking my little sister whos married to one of my friends whom if found out it would kill them inside and....I am....here. so, here I am going....nod. Okay. I am never important enough...fine. Fuckit.

On top of three of my favorite animals dying within a week period. FUCK.

LOL IN SHORT NO, not much can be done. I am trying to figure out 10 yrs and how to move it. My art alone would fill a storage unit. I dunno. I am a middle aged disabled veteran woman who can't seem to get even the most common of decency from people, let alone not having worked for over 10 years since the army. The fuck am I gonna do. Point is, fuck.