Still Alive...
a year ago
To those of you wondering, I am still around and lurking, I've just been going through a lot of shiz over the years, hence the lack of art.
I've moved house twice: three/four years ago, from old home (leaving my dad and his associated problems) to new home (just me, my mom and a crazy landlady with lots of cats and dogs), complete with internet troubles, work woes and artist's block - but me and my mom were mostly happy there. We traveled to and from work, she binge-watched netflix and britbox, I read my books and doodled; we both tried to deal with our chronic depression as best we could.
Then mom's health issues flared up; type 1 diabetic since a kid, but now the adult issues started showing up - she had a few toes removed due to tissue damage, blood pressure fluctuations, heart palpitations, blood sugar levels spiking and dropping all over the place - and added stress from lifestyle and crazy landlady (who turned out to be a bit more crazy than she first appeared).
But she carried on as best she could, and life moved on. She got to see my brother get married (TWICE) and got to know her grandson for three years.
Then she got sick in November 2023. It ended up with a hospital stay of a few days... and she died on 1 December 2023, in her sleep, from a heart attack. I got the call at quarter past midnight.
Life has been... a bit of a dark spiral since then.
The past few months have felt both rushed and slowed down? Crazy landlady went nuclear and basically chucked me out (never intending to keep ANY of the promises she made my mom), so I had to move house for the second time, back home to my dad. I've had to change job locations three times. I'm still dealing with the red tape and issues with the estate and mom's will (but at least future medical doctors will have a heads-up on anything diabetes-related in their field, since my mom donated her body to medical science- go Mom!) but at least I still have a job and a roof over my head (though the internet is still wacky).
I will, at some point, be posting more art. I have stacks of ideas and a comic I want to work on, some OC designs (literally all written down in a folder on my desktop).
I'm just working through everything as best I can. I've got some good friends looking out for me, and some good books to take my mind off things. I'm on various meds (natural and prescribed) to help with mental health, and working on my physical health as well.
So, I'll still be lurking around and checking out all the cool art on this site for inspiration. I might even post more journal entries, who knows...
Still Alive,
Your arty naganess,
Sil
I've moved house twice: three/four years ago, from old home (leaving my dad and his associated problems) to new home (just me, my mom and a crazy landlady with lots of cats and dogs), complete with internet troubles, work woes and artist's block - but me and my mom were mostly happy there. We traveled to and from work, she binge-watched netflix and britbox, I read my books and doodled; we both tried to deal with our chronic depression as best we could.
Then mom's health issues flared up; type 1 diabetic since a kid, but now the adult issues started showing up - she had a few toes removed due to tissue damage, blood pressure fluctuations, heart palpitations, blood sugar levels spiking and dropping all over the place - and added stress from lifestyle and crazy landlady (who turned out to be a bit more crazy than she first appeared).
But she carried on as best she could, and life moved on. She got to see my brother get married (TWICE) and got to know her grandson for three years.
Then she got sick in November 2023. It ended up with a hospital stay of a few days... and she died on 1 December 2023, in her sleep, from a heart attack. I got the call at quarter past midnight.
Life has been... a bit of a dark spiral since then.
The past few months have felt both rushed and slowed down? Crazy landlady went nuclear and basically chucked me out (never intending to keep ANY of the promises she made my mom), so I had to move house for the second time, back home to my dad. I've had to change job locations three times. I'm still dealing with the red tape and issues with the estate and mom's will (but at least future medical doctors will have a heads-up on anything diabetes-related in their field, since my mom donated her body to medical science- go Mom!) but at least I still have a job and a roof over my head (though the internet is still wacky).
I will, at some point, be posting more art. I have stacks of ideas and a comic I want to work on, some OC designs (literally all written down in a folder on my desktop).
I'm just working through everything as best I can. I've got some good friends looking out for me, and some good books to take my mind off things. I'm on various meds (natural and prescribed) to help with mental health, and working on my physical health as well.
So, I'll still be lurking around and checking out all the cool art on this site for inspiration. I might even post more journal entries, who knows...
Still Alive,
Your arty naganess,
Sil
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It's been such a long time since I saw you last time
I'm... so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine how hard it must have been, especially with depression in the mix, but it's good to see you were able to bounce back on your feet
Can't say I'm happy about any death.
Well, you made it this far.
Please, take your time to just let these feelings settle, figure things out and make sure you're alright.
If we can do something for you, we're always here to listen :)