Thank you, sincerely
a year ago
It's only been a day and yet the longest 24 hours I've experienced in as far back as I can remember. I thought I'd gotten most of my feelings dealt with yesterday but I sorely underestimated the grief and weight that come with losing someone so close to you. Before Loaf, I'd never had a pet of my own much less be there for the final send-off. The feelings really come in waves. I'll be completely fine one moment and the next, something reminds me of her or I see the "ghost cat" out of the corner of my eye where I think I should see her but she no longer is.
Though I cry at the drop of a hat it seems, I smile for the fond memories we shared. You all have shown such love and support with the sweetest words that helped soothe the sudden sting of those quickly onset feelings of grief. I took the day to reflect and walk with my boyfriend in the nearby nature park. We reflected on a lot, shared stories, and cried countless times with smiles on our faces, holding hands. Just this moment of peace and reflection has been a gift in itself. One day at a time, I'll get through this.
Thank you for making it possible.
Thank you all for your kindness and compassion.
...Thank you, sincerely. For everything. ^^
Though I cry at the drop of a hat it seems, I smile for the fond memories we shared. You all have shown such love and support with the sweetest words that helped soothe the sudden sting of those quickly onset feelings of grief. I took the day to reflect and walk with my boyfriend in the nearby nature park. We reflected on a lot, shared stories, and cried countless times with smiles on our faces, holding hands. Just this moment of peace and reflection has been a gift in itself. One day at a time, I'll get through this.
Thank you for making it possible.
Thank you all for your kindness and compassion.
...Thank you, sincerely. For everything. ^^
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I can't help but empathize deeply as a fellow cat lover who has one coming up in years.
It does get easier. You won't ever forget them, but the sting lessens. Def make sure to go through old photos and remember her. Make sure to back those photos up, too.
If it gets to the point where the clean floors and lack of cat fur everywhere is too much and the thought of getting another cat comes to mind, remember that you aren't 'replacing' Loaf. No pet will ever replace her. She's made her home in your heart and she won't be giving it up any time soon.
You may decide that you've still got a lot of love to give and there may be another animal out there who deserves to have it pointed there way. And that is completely okay.
My heart goes out to you and your boyfriend. <3
I'm sorry for the loss, but I hope you take solace knowing you gave them the best life you could
I had several cats that I owned and lost and know the pain of loosing them, it's hard.
I know this is late, but loss hits each of us differently and you have to deal with it your own way. Take all the time you need, and remember that you’ll always carry a piece of her with you.