I need people to commission me, support me on patreon, i need to play rent.

Tell me what you want.
i obviously don't know what people want.
tell me what you want.

I'm stressing out from the absolute silence, the lack of interest. (I can understand if you want to but can't for whatever reason, i'm not shaming people for this or pointing blame on you)
I'm obviously doing something so fucking wrong that i'm getting ignored completely.

I made my mistakes in the past
But that's the past, i'm not a bad person.
I'm really getting better.
I am better.
Better than i'll ever be.

All i can do is assume at this point.
With my past, people and certain fetish groups whom i've dealt with the only answer i can give myself is that 'i'm not good enough to do art'
And i've improved a lot. A WHOLE FUCKING LOT but its never enough, not for me, not for them, at least certain people only care if it's just a certain subject and nothing else.
And there are people who think that i'm GREAT at what i do, and i just don't understand why more think this way.

Please.
Tell me what you want.
You want to just tell me off?
You want to just tell me to stop?
You want to just tell me to keep going?

Tell me anything.
The silence is nothing but more negativity for me and reminding me that no one wants me, no one cares about the things i create.

So talk to me.
Obviously i'm a monster so tell me that i guess

I'm tired of making this journal every time i need to pay rent and don't have enough money.
Please.
This will be the last time i ask.
Support me.
Help me improve.
I got nothing left.