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what the point trying to do something with your life!
a year ago
this is one of those thing im just in a midlife crisis where i cant have a social life, i'm always force to work and make money to help my family from a dead end job. i cant even leave my job cause my family would nag cause they need me to find money.
and yes, irl i dont have much friends to have fun or drink with them cause my family force me to save money and help them. sacrificing my social life to save money.
i wasted my whole life cause my dream job was to work in digital media or in gaming company but all i get was force to working in deadend job cause they wanted the money. all that work i did in university earning that degree and wasted cause my family force me to find money from deadend job.
so yeah, that my whole life which is barely anything. just work and feel i end up living alone with the rest of my life.
im upset how my life and they dont care at all, they only care about work and money to help my family. im just a workaholic with no social life and no friends to have party or drink with
and yes, irl i dont have much friends to have fun or drink with them cause my family force me to save money and help them. sacrificing my social life to save money.
i wasted my whole life cause my dream job was to work in digital media or in gaming company but all i get was force to working in deadend job cause they wanted the money. all that work i did in university earning that degree and wasted cause my family force me to find money from deadend job.
so yeah, that my whole life which is barely anything. just work and feel i end up living alone with the rest of my life.
im upset how my life and they dont care at all, they only care about work and money to help my family. im just a workaholic with no social life and no friends to have party or drink with
It sucks, but you aren't alone. You have friends here, and you're a very sweet person
And for whatever it's worth, I think working for a gaming company would've just been worse, especially given the exploitative nature of so many of the big developers. But maybe you could dabble around with media in your free time and eventually try to put out your own project -- to try to follow the example of Toby Fox, Scott Cawthon, Bill Basso, etc. Then you can live the dream without living the nightmare of extreme crunch followed by mass layoffs.
i really wanted a social life cause if i ever find my own home, i can get my own privacy and able to do things my way but instead i just force to stay home, working and helping my family, and privacy is zero here, that why i cant barely improve my drawing.
i been living in repeated life for very long time and nothing will change. just the same force to make money and help the family.
But I thought of it as an endurance test. And I passed it. I'll spare you the details here (I have a journal about it on my own account if you care), but one by one, I stopped having to put up with them until it was just me in my own place. It didn't end the way I would have preferred for it to end, but it did end. I probably muttered to myself "This is only temporary" or "This is only a checkpoint" over a hundred thousand times, but eventually, I was right.
I'm sure the situation isn't exactly the same, but if there's only one thing it has in common with mine, it's that there's no way it can last forever.