Dearest readers:: (mind you this is my opioin you are welcome to agree or to disargee or ust to agree to disagree but however you look at it hopefully you may have some wisdom to share with me or others who are in a simaller bind such as myself)


Im not willing to risk adding another person into my realionship with my boyfriend right now since he and i havent had the chance to even live together yet and knowing how unstable we are and me with my issuses. all i know is that my opioin is that with one friend that likes me and my boyfriend both it dont feel it is the right time to even be thinking about adding them into the realtionship so soon

And my opioin is that the person was putting far to much hope into the realtionship part of it when the three of us dont even know where our feelings stand or even what levels they are at .I know im not ready for it and it may oe may not happen either it could go either way but im not putting any hope into something that may or may not even pan out into the furture and in the two veisons i have had there wasnt even a third person in the realtionship. Why david ever thought that getting the lovers card when he did a taort reading was meant that the person who is slightly low level on the friendship key could ever enter into our realtionship is beyond me.

All i know is that i got the lovers card in a reading i did on myself can or could mean many things but not adding another to the realtionship with tarot cards there are always hidden meanings in them meassges that we dont see just then when we do the reading but you always have keep that in the back of your mind thaat it could mean many things it could mean something going on now currentlyor something that might have happened in your past or in your futrue but it usselly doesnt mean or point ot a speice place or person the intuper of the meassge thats being givne must draw on his or hers own coulsions on what it might mean or what it could mean wheither its a day, week two weeks, a month ot three to five years down the road.

the tarot deck is smiplely a divation tool and as it being a tool for a witch to use it has different meanings for different pple who use it weatherit be the three decks i use Fariy orcale (yes it is a taort deck not and orcale deck my boyfriend is cracked in the head for thinking its an orcale deck. But im cracked in the head too), My arturian deck which means som much to me since i have such a fancitsion with the arthurian myths and leageds, and last but not least my welsh deck which i also hold near and dear to my heart. I hold all three tarot decks close to my heart. The fariy orcale deck was the second deck i got the frist was the rider whaite deck oh lord how did i disliked that deck and then i fot the fariy deck and that one became the one i used the most and now the three decks i have i use all three equally tho i pefer my arthurain deck a bit more then i do the other too but i stil love all three decks all of them have a speaicl meaning to me not only as a witch but as a person a well.

if this make me sound slefish or paranoid or even jealous then i dont know what to tell ya. And of cousre it is my life and i will do as i please or how i see fit as long as i am true to myself as a person my beliefs are mine and mine alone and im not here to force anyone not even those who do take the time to read my blogs my ideas and morals and belifs onto them. I am smiplely a woman who is a witch, has an affinty to wolves,believes in ghosts and spirits,wants to be a paranormal investgateor and a cosmotogest at the same time and even mayb an actoress some day one day,Music whore,book junkie , a junkie for the written words of my faith and imagainey that guides me thourgh out my life along the side of my boyfriend because i have eyes like no other and i coud get lost in his forever and i ust hope he feels the same about me.