If you guessed right you'll realize I'm talking about me. but in a moment of I guess fucking enlightenment (oddly enough after a 1 hou nap when I should've been studying for these damned finals tommorow. ) that I have an unnatural aversion to anything work related (probably the real reason I'm basically unemployed,(university newspaper strip atist, is petty much an unpaying job once yiou include the gas money it takes me to get to school) barely passing most of my classes and live in a place that looks like its been hit by a fucking huricane! (and yet I have the nerve to say, "hmm.... maybe i should clean this up.) I guess its like procrastination to a maxxed out level. Now usually I'd just deny this, yell at myself for a while then break something in the house (then of course worry if said broken object was mine or not. ) but today I'm just gonna complaain and whine for a while and forgo the destruction, hell even this is a waste of time that I should be spending in my Japanese or literature book, but I just can't bring myself to start. I alwaays manage to find something else to do other than what I should be....


ok I'm done with the self-hate and and verbal feeeling sorry for myself... at least for now, tthanks for wasting your time listening to me bitch I going to try to get to work...

ps no this journsal won't be here tommorow and if you have some response thanks, but keep it to yerself