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Checking In - June 3 2024
a year ago
Hey everybody!
So some things have been changing and wanted to give folks an update on my life and other things. Gonna try to keep it brief since I know some folks aren't interested in walls of text. But as I have proven, that is a hard ask.
As far as projects go, currently on hold. Working on a lot of executive function issues preventing me from getting stuff done.
As far as life goes, I'm happier and healthier than ever. Granted I still have bouts of depression, but nowhere near as intensive or as frequent as before. My weight over the past several years has plummeted from a record 360 lbs down to 220, my doctor tells me my Type-2 Diabetes is basically a non-issue now (though I am still taking my medication for it), I am in regular therapy appointments, I have a boyfriend of 2 years that I love very much, I am back in school (though I had to take the Spring semester off due to medication withdrawal symptoms as my doc was pruning my medications. But that's okay!), eager to get back to my studies in the Fall (Computer Science major, New Media minor).
I have a sleep study tomorrow where my doctor and the sleep center appears to think I have narcolepsy and want to test for that and others, so this study will be something around 24 hours? It'll be intensive, but so long as I can get some answers, I'll appreciate it. My quality of sleep has been super fragile lately.
Still fiscally strained, but not in danger. Would love to go back to AC or go to MFF someday, but that is not yet in the cards as I have to be a fiscally responsible adult. Speaking of adulting, I did get my learner's permit, but I do not yet have a means of practically learning how to drive a car, so that's something I will need to find.
Socially speaking, I am pretty active on Discord ( SpellboundTutor if you are interested in contacting me! ), but I have essentially stopped using just about any other form of social media. I quit Twitter last year. I understand myself to be, as an Autistic person, very susceptible to arguing with trolls as if I can somehow change their views, and that has proven to be an exercise in wasting time, energy, and positive vibes, so it is very likely that, with the exception of some niche communities like FA or similar, I'll likely be sticking to more decentralized social media platforms like Discord and similar to mitigate those problems.
Still eager to make friends, trying really hard to train myself to be more proactive with engaging with folks. Rarely successful, but it is a trial-and-error process. Trying to actively ignore folks who leap to personal attacks or "owns" or perpetuating interpersonal drama as all that is poison for my soul. I want to be around people who, while they are not engaged in toxic positivity (ignoring bad things that exist in order to maintain the facade of happiness and joy), trying to engage more with people who are more optimistic about life and exuding the same kind of constructively positive energy that I want to share myself!
Anyway, that's basically all from me. Probably gonna delete a lot of my older journal entries, mainly having to do with that kind of drama perpetuating and peddling that I engaged in prior, but might just clean slate it to be safe.
Hope y'all are doing well, if you want to say hi, my discord username is posted somewhere, and I hope to talk to you soon! Take it easy!
So some things have been changing and wanted to give folks an update on my life and other things. Gonna try to keep it brief since I know some folks aren't interested in walls of text. But as I have proven, that is a hard ask.
As far as projects go, currently on hold. Working on a lot of executive function issues preventing me from getting stuff done.
As far as life goes, I'm happier and healthier than ever. Granted I still have bouts of depression, but nowhere near as intensive or as frequent as before. My weight over the past several years has plummeted from a record 360 lbs down to 220, my doctor tells me my Type-2 Diabetes is basically a non-issue now (though I am still taking my medication for it), I am in regular therapy appointments, I have a boyfriend of 2 years that I love very much, I am back in school (though I had to take the Spring semester off due to medication withdrawal symptoms as my doc was pruning my medications. But that's okay!), eager to get back to my studies in the Fall (Computer Science major, New Media minor).
I have a sleep study tomorrow where my doctor and the sleep center appears to think I have narcolepsy and want to test for that and others, so this study will be something around 24 hours? It'll be intensive, but so long as I can get some answers, I'll appreciate it. My quality of sleep has been super fragile lately.
Still fiscally strained, but not in danger. Would love to go back to AC or go to MFF someday, but that is not yet in the cards as I have to be a fiscally responsible adult. Speaking of adulting, I did get my learner's permit, but I do not yet have a means of practically learning how to drive a car, so that's something I will need to find.
Socially speaking, I am pretty active on Discord ( SpellboundTutor if you are interested in contacting me! ), but I have essentially stopped using just about any other form of social media. I quit Twitter last year. I understand myself to be, as an Autistic person, very susceptible to arguing with trolls as if I can somehow change their views, and that has proven to be an exercise in wasting time, energy, and positive vibes, so it is very likely that, with the exception of some niche communities like FA or similar, I'll likely be sticking to more decentralized social media platforms like Discord and similar to mitigate those problems.
Still eager to make friends, trying really hard to train myself to be more proactive with engaging with folks. Rarely successful, but it is a trial-and-error process. Trying to actively ignore folks who leap to personal attacks or "owns" or perpetuating interpersonal drama as all that is poison for my soul. I want to be around people who, while they are not engaged in toxic positivity (ignoring bad things that exist in order to maintain the facade of happiness and joy), trying to engage more with people who are more optimistic about life and exuding the same kind of constructively positive energy that I want to share myself!
Anyway, that's basically all from me. Probably gonna delete a lot of my older journal entries, mainly having to do with that kind of drama perpetuating and peddling that I engaged in prior, but might just clean slate it to be safe.
Hope y'all are doing well, if you want to say hi, my discord username is posted somewhere, and I hope to talk to you soon! Take it easy!
