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Why I'm cancelling the TF drive
a year ago
Heyo friends. I know that this might be sudden, especially with the update I posted yesterday, but I'm going to have to cancel the tf drive. I'm deeply sorry about this, but I'll explain why below.
To put it simply, I want to focus on my mental health. I wanted to do art as a hobby, something that could ease my mind. But since joining social medias like twitter, art no longer felt like a hobby anymore. Trends like TF Tuesday became a deadline for a weekly assignment I had to complete. This is hard enough for an autistic person who has an executive dysfunction disorder. Add on the stress from irl things like uni and work and you get an overwhelming schedule that’s borderline impossible to keep up with.
I also realized the TF drive was completely dependent on gaining as much attention as possible. Not only was I trying to fight the algorithm, I was worried about not getting enough numbers. This has trickled down to the art I do. Low numbers made me think people didn’t like my art even if I thought it was one of my best works and vice versa.
I don’t want to do art this way. I want to enjoy it at my own pace and without pressure. The drive was the complete opposite of that, causing me to almost dread doing it. There were so many factors I couldn’t account for nor control, and that uncertainty was stressing me out.
If you were looking forward to the drive, I’m really sorry about having to cancel it. I still want to do art for you guys, but I want to enjoy doing it. I might open up a YCH or smth so that I can still fund my trip to AC. I'll keep you all posted on that.
To put it simply, I want to focus on my mental health. I wanted to do art as a hobby, something that could ease my mind. But since joining social medias like twitter, art no longer felt like a hobby anymore. Trends like TF Tuesday became a deadline for a weekly assignment I had to complete. This is hard enough for an autistic person who has an executive dysfunction disorder. Add on the stress from irl things like uni and work and you get an overwhelming schedule that’s borderline impossible to keep up with.
I also realized the TF drive was completely dependent on gaining as much attention as possible. Not only was I trying to fight the algorithm, I was worried about not getting enough numbers. This has trickled down to the art I do. Low numbers made me think people didn’t like my art even if I thought it was one of my best works and vice versa.
I don’t want to do art this way. I want to enjoy it at my own pace and without pressure. The drive was the complete opposite of that, causing me to almost dread doing it. There were so many factors I couldn’t account for nor control, and that uncertainty was stressing me out.
If you were looking forward to the drive, I’m really sorry about having to cancel it. I still want to do art for you guys, but I want to enjoy doing it. I might open up a YCH or smth so that I can still fund my trip to AC. I'll keep you all posted on that.
