Hello loves. This Is the post I don't really wanted to do for the longest time and I apologize for making It.
Some of you may know I'm a mental hospital patient for a while (the type of facility you go home for the night but you're still a hospital patient and my doctors suspect some sort of illness but on that later.

Im making this post to apologize for bigger commissions I have on hold but also sort of make opening for the smallest of commissions trying to reach a certain goal but Ill describe the situation in detail below. Im not comfortable to make any sort of gofund me and stuffs so I hope Ill be able to make some sense and explain myself. It's really hard to write It out tho but Im at the point im at my witts end, Im in lots of physical and mental pain and Ill be honest I feel totally humilated by even typing this out.

You may or might not know but so far Im suffering from few chronic conditions that were managable until few months ago. From relatively healthy person I went into the wreck. I fell back on work, and became more and more sick. I worked with my gp on bringing back my skin into working order for a while but despite my allergy meds and expensive ointments it didn't worked. Im basically a walking wound and 80% of my skin is burning with open wounds and I can't sit for too long without getting wounds on my legs and lower body parts. it's not preety at all. 80% of what i've made so far went towards those ointments and medicines but despite my best efforts I can't get It under control and It gets worse.

That's where my gp have had an idea It might be an issue with my adrenal glands and in more likely Cushing's syndrome. Running theory Is that cushings ampled up my other existing conditions which are depression and few other mental things (im undergoing proper diagnosis rn) and Atopic dermatitis (ecgzema). I also got diabetic out of sudden, my liver was in a very bad state but we got it better thanks to my amazing doctor. It's still a suspicion tho. It fits like a glove tho and It's very likely why both my physical health and mental one took a turn for the worse ending up in the situation im In rn. I tried to keep working slowly on bigger commissions and taking on tiny ones to slowly save up to see a specialist but It kept getting worse and everything went towards skin medicines, ointments and my chronic meds but I sadly fell behind and situation got really bad despite my best efforts.
As person who always were able to work my things out by myself I feel greatly humilated but I do need help so I hope you can forgive me this wall of text.
Right now I need to see two specialists privately and get my meds and lots of ointments to soothe my skin until i can be seen by specialist.
1.Is obviously dermatologist. Waiting list Is long so It would be most perfect to see them privately because longer wait means more funds go towards solutions that might stop working soon and my skin Is such an issue I can't handle It anymore. It's always hot, Itchy, broken and bleeding. Allergy meds are not helping with the itching, creams just give a moment of relief. I need specialists intervention.

2.Endocrynologist - Obvious aderal glands suspicion. My doctor asked me to go privately to one certain doctor because he works at the clinic in the big town nearby and runs endocrylogy departament and have a power to send me there for tests that will be of no cost if he will be willing to send me there. He may also be able to help with my skin.

Since im not able to sit for longer than 15 minutes at time Im opening colored bust commission to save up to see those and buy ointments,emolients, meds and creams. It would be really nice If i could also been able to afford some groceries because obvious situation left Raf covering all our expenses for a while now and It got really bad. I tried my best to supply our budget somehow but without ability to work like I used to It's bad and Im physically not able to handle my skin or wounds anymore and my inability to work makes my mental health just spiral again despite best effords of mental hospital Im in.
The goal Is 2000 $ but anything will help honestly.

I know the target amount Is high but majority of It should cover private visits, medicines and some leftover goes to our bills to ease up burden on who Is doing his best on supporting both of us but he's already burned out and Is not able to do much more to better our situation.
If you would like to help us please consider either getting a colored bust commission (or bleepie) or donating to the cause using a kofi provided below.
If you could share It later It would be awesome way of help too,

Most of all I appreciate all the well wishes. I do have an amazing friends who are very much loved and I cherish you all.

Thank you for reading that wall of text and thank you.
Also Im very sorry. I truly am.



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