I have never been into opening up about myself online, but lately, I've been thinking about some things. With all this talk of "AI" and its worsening hype, I'm concluding that I've got to focus on what makes me an artist and not just a digital illustration and smut-spewing machine.

Being an actual person, with actual struggles and experiences, who spent hours drawing a sexy anthropomorphic creature, then shared it online because I want to know what you think of it. That's one of the things that an image generator can't create. It can make great illustrations, interesting concepts, and pretty decent lewds in mere seconds. But it won't have my personal experience that somehow makes my drawings truly mine. And it won't get in touch with an online community to vent about all of the shit that's going on with its life.

So, here I am. With half a thousand watchers (wow, thanks!!) I think at least some will read this.

I've posted less art than I wanted to lately. I know I already don't upload much, but after I lost my father back in April, it's difficult to find the energy needed to do basic things, let alone draw. TW (suicide): please don't take your life guys, it's not something easy to deal with later. Although I know he had his reasons, it's still incredibly painful to accept it. So yeah, I'm depressed. Dealing with loss is hard, but there's not much you can do other than go through it. Thankfully, I have a few good friends who are helping me get through it.

On a bittersweet note, after many long years, I finished my bachelor course. I won't be missing that at all. Now I have a paper that says I can be a mechanical engineer. Was it worth the suffering? Probably not.

Anyway, I've finished some drawings, expect to see them soon! And with more consistency. I'm making a point of this.

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