"Oh woah, there's someone else in here? Neat! ^.=.^"
a year ago
This year on February 5th, during a session of Puzzle Monday that I co-host with others on the Discord server that
chaosthesalamander has, it was a rather down-day for me leading up to it: a crappy lunch I ordered that had to be thrown out due to being undercooked by the restaurant being the main kicker, and it being one I looked forward to, then coupled with just not feeling physically great that day.
I could barely function hours later despite having gotten something else for lunch. My mood was shot completely, and I couldn't snap out of the funk I was in. Hours later was the show, and I lasted all of twenty minutes before needing to take my headset off. I tried showerin', nibbling a small snack in-case I was hungry and not entirely realizing it, but nothing helped. Then having to answer a call from a family member as my vocal intonations are broadcasting I'm not in a good way - not that there's any issue with them and I, just didn't expect it and answering the phone like that was stressful.
So eventually I realize if I don't get out of my bedroom right now, I wouldn't. So I get up and back to my main room with my PC, and I tell my co-hosts I'm not doing great.
amethystine being one of the co-hosts pings me on the side to ask what's up, and after a brief dialogue I suddenly felt something in me I had never before. I tell him I'm going to try something since it "feels more right here." I then feel myself slowly 'slipping back', and I start changing my profile picture and display name, and suddenly I'm not in my body, someone else is piloting! But I knew who it was as it was happening, and I knew it was going to be ok.
While he had only been a character in RP/ERP before, suddenly D.S. was fronting and engaging in the chat and call without issue. A good couple of hours of him fronting later, a thought came across that was much more from 'me'. I remember him smiling, and realizing that I had essentially woke up, and he gently handed the control back to me before slipping back. I can only describe it as being a very refreshing nap, and I was my usual bubbly self without any effort.
I never felt stress or a sense of being 'trapped', merely that he was helping out and well, he's here now. I remember thinking to myself if this was just me but being in-character, but I could watch and see his thought process, and his was very different than mine. First-reactions were completely different, and even voice!
We rapidly worked out basics the next day, and working together along with the help of some friends, we realized that we shared memory basically 100% along with other details that'll take a while to go through.
One detail to specify is that we don't really 'blend' at this point - it's either D.S. or I fronting, and that's it.
It's been nearly six months and we're both happy to be here together. ^.=.^
If you have questions, feel free to ask - though if you have a specific question to one of us, do make sure to specify whom you're asking.
Oh and yeah, there should be another announcement I make. I'll get to it eventually!~

I could barely function hours later despite having gotten something else for lunch. My mood was shot completely, and I couldn't snap out of the funk I was in. Hours later was the show, and I lasted all of twenty minutes before needing to take my headset off. I tried showerin', nibbling a small snack in-case I was hungry and not entirely realizing it, but nothing helped. Then having to answer a call from a family member as my vocal intonations are broadcasting I'm not in a good way - not that there's any issue with them and I, just didn't expect it and answering the phone like that was stressful.
So eventually I realize if I don't get out of my bedroom right now, I wouldn't. So I get up and back to my main room with my PC, and I tell my co-hosts I'm not doing great.

While he had only been a character in RP/ERP before, suddenly D.S. was fronting and engaging in the chat and call without issue. A good couple of hours of him fronting later, a thought came across that was much more from 'me'. I remember him smiling, and realizing that I had essentially woke up, and he gently handed the control back to me before slipping back. I can only describe it as being a very refreshing nap, and I was my usual bubbly self without any effort.
I never felt stress or a sense of being 'trapped', merely that he was helping out and well, he's here now. I remember thinking to myself if this was just me but being in-character, but I could watch and see his thought process, and his was very different than mine. First-reactions were completely different, and even voice!
We rapidly worked out basics the next day, and working together along with the help of some friends, we realized that we shared memory basically 100% along with other details that'll take a while to go through.
One detail to specify is that we don't really 'blend' at this point - it's either D.S. or I fronting, and that's it.
It's been nearly six months and we're both happy to be here together. ^.=.^
If you have questions, feel free to ask - though if you have a specific question to one of us, do make sure to specify whom you're asking.
Oh and yeah, there should be another announcement I make. I'll get to it eventually!~
I wish you all the best - you and D.S. both! :}===<
We don't know if all of you lent a hand in it, but neither of us would be unhappy or feel it's a lie to say to some degree, yeah probably. ^.=.^
Only good things ahead for the two of you <3
There is a toooooon of art with him and I, as well as him solo!~ :3
Mlemlemlemlemlemlem.