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Hi guys, sorry for being absent on here, I didn’t wanted to be open about it while I was working, but since March my father and me were working on a certain political party because there were elections in my Country. Didn’t want to be so open because my Mexican followers and friends may have different political views than me and even if it shouldn’t affect, political speech always ends with confrontations and separation.
After elections I wasn’t discharged of my obligations until June finished, the office we were working was temporal and we needed to dismantle it completely (luckily I got many office supplies I was able to take home).
Sorry for being slow with everything, the job was supposed to be 8hrs per day but we ended up being there for more than 12hrs per day, I mostly worked from home tho but it was so demanding and paid so little. But now I am jobless again and will focus on finishing pending stuff, I think it was just like 3-4 but need to be sure.
After elections I wasn’t discharged of my obligations until June finished, the office we were working was temporal and we needed to dismantle it completely (luckily I got many office supplies I was able to take home).
Sorry for being slow with everything, the job was supposed to be 8hrs per day but we ended up being there for more than 12hrs per day, I mostly worked from home tho but it was so demanding and paid so little. But now I am jobless again and will focus on finishing pending stuff, I think it was just like 3-4 but need to be sure.
Y muchísimas gracias! ;;
2024 has been a helluva bender for sure and ever since 2020 the next just seems worse and more eventful than the last.
I wouldn't stress over publications if you're not doing it for a living. Tbh I used to be kinda more activer in the rp scene and even the people I used to think back to already moved on years ago or saw things as drunk flings for vice aversa.
Something very real vs a fantasy is someone could have seemed to mean the world, but nothing or vice aversa. The furry world can kinda be kinda positively fake NFL sometimes. Some people copy paste a hook and sinker or just act polite and sometimes its just the way people act to everyone.
I hear someone talk about the nostalgia effect on a post about the decline of social communities in mmorpgs the other day. ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S5Hzh43k330 )
And it just kinda got me thinking a bit over just the old days. Do we miss what it was like, or do we miss being younger, with less crushing adult responsibilities? Taking care of our families, bills, medical bills and college debt and loans and car payments and mortgages/rents etc.
As a kid we think those days of endless free time will last forever. But there's always one "last online:" day when a mmorpg friend just never logged in again. Life went on. And people didn't even notice, until some areas became a ghost town. and even if you came back, even with the same people. It might not always be the same.
I'm just a lurker at this point, used to be active but I felt like there's been a silent decline in some of the furry community imho at least. It felt or seemed to be a place of open support and fun 5-10 years ago for me, people traded characters, did painties and bases on like furvilla and flight risings and wow and art fights.
But life changed, some did, some didnt, some got older. Some didn't, but all of us went from carefree teens to adults saddled with bills and 2024 economy debt.
Don't apologize for me for not drawing, you're working hard to support your family it sounds like, I used to stretch my way thin, only to found out that it seemed like many people seemed to stop caring about the other people as people. But wallets or mega phones or numbers it seemed. To try and uphold some childlike fantasy of being a star on the stage. Which was all fine and dandy. But it felt like it was getting to a point it was like trying to step on a forced audiences face to keep them there and just like the magic had gone from fantasy to just porn pictures with people not even caring about the person behind it and tisms.
Who cares about a persons problems when the new generation can just scroll to the next one, and skip the 'Skibidy guzzi glizzler sigma ohio yap', right?
Now I want to return to art but I am very scared, jobs here offer minimal wage and I got more as an artist but seeing the economy I notice artist are hardly selling stuff and not sure if I am going to make it TvT
That's not to say everything is worse but many people who grew up as kids didn't care about efficiency, videos weren't as well edited. If anything, production and knowledge on the games are up. Raids that previously took 3-12 months to complete have been beaten in mmorpgs in as little as 42 minutes within release like blackwing lair (Wow).
Honestly I'm not sure but its kinda bittersweet. Our childhood selves ingame and many of our pairs probably could have seen that kinda performance as a one a server legend. But now its just kinda a neetwar. Last I heard, some people got everything they wanted on paper who were stuck but chose in-game accomplishments over life ones.
I loved the times but I really don't have a answer on how or if things will shake out. I'm just being nostalgic but even within the furry fandom. Some of my experiences have been jaded recently.
People talk about a "anchor" effect where in mmorpgs, some people might 'anchor' you to the game without even realizing it. Say a friend you log in hoping to chat to every day, even a jackwad with high ilvl e score you just logged in to compete. Or a guild I'm the flex days where everyone could log in to play, before 0.1%ers gaming the system made devs remove it for everyone.
With the furry community idk. I think a lot of art is better technicality wise than ever before. But I kinda felt like I've maybe lost the 'non anchor' non artist community for me. I know people think of the pictures as the most important thing but for myself idk.
I used to buy the art to hang out, illustrate a cool rp idea, and even if it was just 100s of views vs 300-1000s, I'd used to see stuff like "Oh my god, that stuff is so hot,"! " oh that character is so cool!" "Check out mine too!" "What do you think about this!"
With the change in politics and some years workaholicing and college/employment and life changes. I think like nearly every soft anchor I had kinda left. The art exists and so do the artists but when I would post. It felt less like "omg, your character is so cool, I'd love to do that!" To "im going to goon." "shutup hole, and gEtFUCKED!!!!", or " STFU! I CUMM!!!!"
Idk if I'm jaded or not buy you sound like you might know what its like to have to look after a family as a man too. Trying to be the cornerstone, bearing all the weight. Nobody there to support you but feeling like things would collapse if you leave.
Priorities can change over time and that's not always bad. When I was a kid the furry fandom was a joy over life, a playground, a place characters could have magical powers, and there was some cross contamination. A fair amount of some of the people who got me into the fandom were mmorpg players with like custom worgen/tauren/druid arts or even just watching characters like Suel and soty and blotch etc.
But these recent years idk. Mmorpgs at least kinda ended with happy grace. Most every memory was fond or grindy nostalgia. We thought they'd last forever then they ended.
But the fandom in 2024. I don't know. Thinga haven't been right and while the economy has been strained. I just don't really have a answer. Not that I don't want to. But the economic problem of the world just seems too big for any one man. We have twice the gdp a person as ever before. But we have to work 5 jobs to buy a house in the same timespan our ww2 forefathers could buy it in one ged job and 3 houses for their children at a barbershop.
There wasn't more during ww2. They just were a populace that if politicians were corrupt or negligent and sent them to die in machine gun marches. They'd just "oops,", after exhausting every legal option. But idk. Thats not really endorseable. But its kinda sad that profits have become more important than people. But the only realistic adult choices we have are to either join the system or see nationwide divide. I wish we just felt listened to by the government. As working class men and people to people.
But idk, maybe too much of a over rant.
Still good talking to you and wishing you all the most practical bwst of lucks. Don't worry about art but its alright if you ever need to worry about numero uno. I loved my past in mmorpgs and role-playing with my original anchor friends but it eventually ended.
I still have things to look forward too, new bbq grill recipes, new things to try, little laughs and parttering feet. But idk. Even as a " hentai tentacle panther" I kinda got jaded with the "omg I luv your char! wanta do a scene??!! :D" to the "STFU HOLE." 'change' in the furry fandom.
I wonder if it'll be like mmorpgs where it'll never be a sudden poof, just a trickle of new players and old players so there'll always be new people coming.
But WoW eventually went down from 12m subbed Wotlk players to 1m bfa subbed. Then stopped releasing numbers. The mmorpg never truly 'died', just 90% of the people eventually left or ff14/gw2/eso/fortnite/ osrs/Destiny2/discord/twitter Or became adults and moved on.
I wish I had a magic machine to go back and relive the past or press a button and magically solve all problems, both financial, past and present. But I don't know. Sometimes out intuition exists for a reason.
And when you turn it off, trusting your hands on the fire, you get burnt instead even if it was something you once loved. :/. sustainability too. While its sad to leave something behind, ive also seen some peoples health and finances dwindle away clinging to the past.
I could offer some hollow platitudes like "Just do what your heart desires, believe in yourself, and it'd all work out fine!", but idk. My souls been cut before believing the best in things that had already changed.
Life is still great, but sometimes it hurts more to cling onto a thorn than to let go and start a new adventure. For me and my personal experience at least. You gotta feed your family right? 😕🙁😞