Hey. Hello.

I don't often write here, but since even a broken clock is right twice a day... here we go.

For as long as I can remember, I didn't have control over my life. And after a series of events starting from work with a psychiatrist, nervous breakdown, job loss, war, unexpectedly having a puppy (which is nice, but energy-consuming and too expensive for someone with no stable job), in recent years I fucked up my general life and the drawing life too. I had such severe social anxiety that, since spring, my friend helped me with sending letters with finished artworks, because I literally could not sent them myself.

But I started to get my shit together since spring. I had an attempt at winter, you might remember I was active in December, but I got much worse in January and disappeared again.
So, about my journey since spring. In a nutshell, that was a challenge: a group of people came together to pull ourselves together. And with a limited time to finish everything, we drew our to-do lists, supporting each other. The format of coworking with a threat over my head (we put our characters on the line) helped me a lot and gave me enough strength to finish my to-do list. I had 44 drawings to do in December. 29 in May. Now I have none.
And my friends helped me a lot, so I’m grateful to them. Спасибо вам, если вы это читаете. Я не устану вас благодарить. Хрен бы я без вас справился.

So there you go.
For the first time in many years (I believe it's first time since 2019, fucking hell!), I have no artworks that I owe someone, my to-do list is free. It feels like a new chapter of life. And I would really like to keep that chapter in a good state and not fuck it up again.

So here is my venting~
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As to the future.

• I want to update my gallery with drawings with some sort of schedule, because there are a lot of them, but I did not show anything anywhere.
• I have a lot of characters. Like... a lot of characters. I used to draw them exclusively to myself, not showing them anywhere but to friends and sometimes on my Boosty page, very rarely in public. I want to change that and show more of my personal art with my own OC's to people.
• I want to clean up the gallery. Artworks will not be removed, but I will put most of them in scraps. Just because I want to distance myself a little bit from past me, not because art or characters are bad, so please don't take it personal if I'll hide art I've made for you! c:
• As for commissions and so on. Once I tried the format of multi-slots YCHs. Now that I am free, I want to return it, planning to release one per month. Commission slots should be reopened with some schedule, but for now I need to figure out how to do it. I really don't want to create such mess that I did in a past, I don't want to make people wait, I want to do it right.

So, if everything goes smoothly, I should become more alive soon. I'll take a little vacation until August, and will start my new life here from August.

Thanks for reading. Have a good day.