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Thoughts on the Headline (RiP 'neer)
a year ago
"ever have a dream/Nightmare even if vauge.. forshadowed something that's happened/actively happening durring the time you were asleep? Yea me too."
i cant say w/ events thats gone on for me in teh last two weeks that i'd like to dismiss it as what i get for eating sketchy ass ramen for dollar general before a nap ...
but i laid down briefly from the timegap just before thru just n hour after the annoucement went up.. the dream had someone i knew walking away... forever.. and i try to just solve it by drowning.. n quickly woke up.. it more or less after i woke up and had the moment to look at fa whats new/check multiple pings on discord and telegram, i couldnt believe for a mo what i saw.. i thought it was a sick joke and i wasnt laughing...
No .. while i hope what hapopened was far from what did , it still forshadowed someone i knew (granted i hardly spoke to him much in early ass days. i was hardly even "just someone he knew." (i more or less had misgrievings on early drama. and had been introduced directly by friends..) like if he were still alive and i poked i 100% would be sure he wouldnt remember who the ** i am.. i wasnt known as Cael Thunderwing for all that long yet back then, (i was more known as Chibisuke from days on DA.) its gonna be hard to believe he's gone ... not of his own making but the fucking American health care system telling a dying make screw you.
makes me , someone who's got less possibly severe issues, being on Medicaid where he could not.. feel like shit. like twisted thinking "if i was off it maybe he could of been.. could of gotten shit check out." but no it'd just mean i'd die just as sad a miserable death from lethally high glucose at some point.
RiP 'neer, least now you dont haveto deal w/ that cough now... and sorry.. for my misgivings of issues long in teh past.
i cant say w/ events thats gone on for me in teh last two weeks that i'd like to dismiss it as what i get for eating sketchy ass ramen for dollar general before a nap ...
but i laid down briefly from the timegap just before thru just n hour after the annoucement went up.. the dream had someone i knew walking away... forever.. and i try to just solve it by drowning.. n quickly woke up.. it more or less after i woke up and had the moment to look at fa whats new/check multiple pings on discord and telegram, i couldnt believe for a mo what i saw.. i thought it was a sick joke and i wasnt laughing...
No .. while i hope what hapopened was far from what did , it still forshadowed someone i knew (granted i hardly spoke to him much in early ass days. i was hardly even "just someone he knew." (i more or less had misgrievings on early drama. and had been introduced directly by friends..) like if he were still alive and i poked i 100% would be sure he wouldnt remember who the ** i am.. i wasnt known as Cael Thunderwing for all that long yet back then, (i was more known as Chibisuke from days on DA.) its gonna be hard to believe he's gone ... not of his own making but the fucking American health care system telling a dying make screw you.
makes me , someone who's got less possibly severe issues, being on Medicaid where he could not.. feel like shit. like twisted thinking "if i was off it maybe he could of been.. could of gotten shit check out." but no it'd just mean i'd die just as sad a miserable death from lethally high glucose at some point.
RiP 'neer, least now you dont haveto deal w/ that cough now... and sorry.. for my misgivings of issues long in teh past.
well....the pain is finally gone....
but no pen can be lifted...