but im starting to wonder if i need to just... Disappear. Not in the morbid sense... but,

the stress of this move has shown me i dont really belong in a fair few Communities... that not as many people who said they care.. actually do. the consistent abuse from family... the fact i have likley a stress ulcer as i cant eat anything w/o feeling severely ill, ... i said this yesterday n not really anyone but 3 souls said anything... "No Cure for when the heart hurts and the Soul Suffers, where the world wants you to drown in Misery."

I'm a System.... i have headmates... so for me if i disappear.. the physical would Remain but i'd prob "Hide"

"ohh its not that bad.." "its just moving jitters, stop being a drama queen." "you're overreacting." yea you try having your life riped from under you by force because the area is being petty and your only option is barely a step above being homeless while you wait on a real solution/place to go to show.., while the countries current politics actually making matters worse for you, where you get made feel you need to "KYS" (if ya know ya know.) for just being diffrent... for being disabled... being labeled as a burden...

maybe it really is just moving jitters but i feel lower than i did august '20 :/