I'm very I glad I got to this number just day before 8/8. I have a pretty complex art ready for this day. I mean, it was a YCH auction, so everyone knows what it is about, but I'm very happy I used new technique of shading a friend taught me and it's working pretty good so far. I really wish he showed me more because I really want to learn, but it kinda seems he forgot about me. I really don't want to ping people to remind them. The fact they forget is strong sign to me. And not just that. I've felt pretty lonely lately. I haven't had almost any chatting with many of my friends, one of them I just WANT to forget about and never talk to again.

Then I had b-day. Now I'm not demanding, I really am not, but it is really sad to me that it keeps happening that some of them just don't write a word. Happened last year, happened this year. Well, at least I got some really nice wishes from other people here and on twitter. But still, I wish my closest friends were a little more consistent. They mean a lot to me and I don't want to forget another one. Especially when they did help me a lot in past. It's safe to say I'm a very sensitive Rex. And currently feel very lonely. I still feel pain one year after hernia surgery and that's bothering me a lot. I hope it leaves sooner rather than later. And with some of the friends, I wish I chatted more with. Doesn't happen that often. And I'm aware some of them may see this journal here, so let's just say I'm expressing my feelings. Mental and physical.

As for other stuff, starting tomorrow, I'm selling Alexstrasza's rig! I guess I'll do it same way I did with Momma (here on FA via notes), but I don't rule out the possibility of selling it on gumroad, turbosquid, sketchfab, kofi or something else. For now, I'll do it like this. I'll reveal prices tomorrow. Spoiler- it's slightly cheaper than Momma (even though Alexstrasza was much harder to make). However, I'm not holding my breath very much even though I did get comments from people supposedly wanting the model. I got same messages for Momma and almost noone bought her. It is fact I spent WAYYYYYY too long making her. Passion is absolutely there, a lot of it, so my prices are not gonna change with passing time. Once I set price, I'll most likely not change it. Just wanna say one thing - if you ever want to make me feel happy with comments like "I would but (insert reason why not...)", then don't do it. I got a bunch of them during 8/8 auction and I made it pretty clear that I don't want to know reasons why I failed selling it to someone. They thought they'd make me happy, but in fact, these kind of comments make it MUCH worse because they remind me how close I was but nothing was sold. No offense, just if you can't afford something from me, it's absolutely OK, just don't remind me this. I'm better not knowing circumstances. It really gets annoying after time.

Now this is a long journal. Didn't expect it to be this long, but I guess ranting does its job. Well, I'm glad I'm still continuing doing these journals every 100 watchers.

So, as always, thank you for helping me grow! See ya next time!