i'm a cybersecurity analyst now! it's surreal. I've finally attained a career, at 35. many of you have known me for a long ass time, and know the hardships it took to get here. my health is still bad, always. but i have learned to deal with it better. money helps, naturally. i've been playing a lot of FFXIV and no man's sky.

i've been entirely unmotivated to make art though. i get so much fulfillment from work that i was lacking with art. i make art for myself, first and foremost, but it still sucks to post things i spent months on that i'm proud of and have no interactions through it.

so yeah. bummer, that.

but i've started learning to make music. something i've wanted to do for many years. i bought a MIDI keyboard and have been learning how to play piano with it. it's been nice. i don't feel bored by practicing the basics over and over, which is a first. i come from a musical family, and i played clarinet in the school band as a kid, and was in choirs a lot. music certainly comes more naturally to me than art because of the aphantasia thing.

so this might help me fall in love with art again. maybe i just need a break.

i hope you've all been well. until next time