Would anyone care if i just left ?
a year ago
Oh no you are blowing up!
What if i just.. deleted everything and left. would anyone even care
almost 10 fucking years in this fandom and yet i feel like i have done nothing. and i watch others join and surpass me in less then a year and get everything i ever wanted
I do fucking anything that isnt cute toony round inflation. then its "fuck you here is like 3 likes" I do something i think everyone will love. "eehhh. here is 30 likes"
I open for commissions and its amazing if i get 4 coms at most with out begging" fucking hell i see other artists open up and close with in 20 minutes with 15+ coms. with prices far higher then i would dare
I thought with in 10 years i would be father along. yet i still feel like im at the start. and in chats seems like im ignored most of the time.
Im just struggling so hard today mentally and feel i have wasted my time. wasted my life. god i wish i could just restart my shit life. do it all different
almost 10 fucking years in this fandom and yet i feel like i have done nothing. and i watch others join and surpass me in less then a year and get everything i ever wanted
I do fucking anything that isnt cute toony round inflation. then its "fuck you here is like 3 likes" I do something i think everyone will love. "eehhh. here is 30 likes"
I open for commissions and its amazing if i get 4 coms at most with out begging" fucking hell i see other artists open up and close with in 20 minutes with 15+ coms. with prices far higher then i would dare
I thought with in 10 years i would be father along. yet i still feel like im at the start. and in chats seems like im ignored most of the time.
Im just struggling so hard today mentally and feel i have wasted my time. wasted my life. god i wish i could just restart my shit life. do it all different
FA+

I can assure you, your art and you as a person is valued. <3
You were one of the artists that got me starting, always appreciated your stuff.
And most important, don't compare yourself with others. You are unique and your stuff is amazing.
keep on trying and working forward. the economy is not being kind right now too.
Sincerely,
The Cheshire Cat's Master
If you want it's never too late to try and make a change. You aren't trapped into making art forever.
Even if it seems like your art isn't getting attention, it really is. I feel that struggle a lot too, since I don't get a lot of slots filled very often, but your artwork is what inspired many to create as well, me being one of those people.
I'm truly sorry you've felt like this today. If you ever need to chat or vent, we're here for you. My DMs are always open if you need to talk, too.
We already lost an important member of our Community, and i dont want to lost another so soon.
I wish i could tell more, but my mind is not fine right now due to some issues.
But I would recommend against deleting your profile and gallery, as then you can't just come back and pick up right where you left off -- no big deal. Just take a break and come back if/when you are ready.
As for chats, that's a common issue. If you pop in mid-conversation people are going to be more engrossed with what they're already talking about, and you end up getting buried. Timing is everything with those.
If you're feeling down because of a lack of engagement, you might want to take a break. But I wouldn't recommend purging your gallery, you've got a lot of awesome artwork and it'd be a shame to lose it, plus from an engagement viewpoint that would just put you back to square one.
As far as chats go, just hop on to new chats, check journals of artists. If the people you’re trying to be with don’t talk to you, there’s definitely places out there that will, in just starting to join streams and chats and such and generally the less people in a room the more likely they are to engage with you because they also wanna make friends!
And yes, deleting everything would out you at square one, so if you ever decided to come back it would be a lot of work getting back to where you are. And this way too if you decide to step back new and old fire can interact and learn about you until you come back. I still have new people interacting with my stuff from when I was actively creating 7-8 years ago.
Sometimes I can't commissions you, but, when I can, I commission you..
Then I think about why I'm here and doing this. It's not for money or the like, but to hopefully express that this is what I like and what I can do. FA allows me to share with others and let them know that the love of inflation, flattening, or paws is normal and nothing to be ashamed of.
For years I though I was alone, that something was wrong with me, and that I should be punished for being or feeling different, so I punished myself. Upon discovering FA, all that changed, and I am happy to be able to share. There will always be others who are more popular, talented, are a flavor of the month, or just plain cooler than I ever will be. And that's okay.
Whether something is faved, commented upon, or if commissions are made is all a huge random batch of calculations that rely on factors outside of our control or understanding. It is not a comment upon the quality of the work.
You would be greatly missed here if you were to leave, and you've made a great many contributions that you are unaware of. My advice to you is to continue doing what you like because you like it, and share with us what you like, knowing that your influence far exceeds what you see here.
This is supposed to be fun. I hope you decide to make it so, because I always think you do good work with a friendly wink.
What I have done to get over all this is to try to see more into this fandom than just the goals I want to achieve. I have spend more time with other furries even when they are not into my same stuff, and met really wonderful friends, who even when they are really small artist or influencers into this fandom, now they are the most important people to me. We can spend time, play videogames, chat, meet new people and talk about what life is.
I might never be able to be the big furry artist that I wish I could be, but even in small numbers I still have an influence on others, specially on people that I can call my friends.
And if I'm really a loser that nobody cares about, good. I prefert to spend my time enjoying my own artwork into things that I like and enjoy even if they are small sketches or the simplest of things or just things that are bad rather than to always feel the presure of being a big artist, having to work hard on always growing, coming up with ideas for ych, commisions, or work.
I have that experience, except it's fat, not inflation. When I don't post something fat enough I won't get much response. But I choose not to think of FA like a monolith deciding to spite me.
Those three likes you got? They mean a lot. Those are real ones. They like your art for the art, not just the fetish. You want more people like that. They're versatile - they'll like anything you do. So I'm guessing (still not there yet), the more you do your thing, the more you'll get people who like you for you, and not just for what you produce.